i hated you last night

[E-girl]

yep, another letter i'll never send...
Dear friend (you know who you are)
I watched this whole board turn against you, and i never understood why. i watched people call you a player, and i watched them say you could be a whole other person. and i thought to myself, i've been to so many parties with him, and i dont see that guy...
I dont pretend that last night wasn't partly my fault, and a kiss is just that... a kiss. but last night it was like an invasion, and today it left a feeling i cant shake. the feeling of being taken advantage of but one of your own friends. and i met that guy that they talked about. wish i hadn't.
can i say i'm mad? or does the fact that i let you kiss me, the fact that i was so fucked up at the time that i felt that could justify everything, cancel it out? i cant help but feel it doesnt. because you were completely sober, you knew what you were doing. and i'll never look at you the same again.
i dont know why it bothered me so much. i just knew something wasn't right, and you swore to these people that you changed. did you lie? i dont think that's fair. i dont want to be part of your collection. i've had too many guys walk all over me. you too now? *shakes head*
i hope i left you a memory last night. its the last one you'll have of me. and i'm sorry if its partly my fault.
Signed,
Chrissy

 

[harraser]

oh babe Im soo sorry you were hurt again.once upon a time I sent one of those letters that never get sent and it changed everything,it wasnt at all like your situation so I wont go into it but basically I wrote a letter without the intent of sending it but when i finished i thought "fuck keeping thi to myself" so I sent it,completely opening myself up to being hurt,and eventually I was, but for a while it changed everything and I actually had someone for a while.

 

[sunEdltye]

E-girl- We talked about this earlier and I still can see how affected you are by this. I sometimes hate being a guy...being so controlled by only sexual pleasures instead of emotional ones. I tried to take advantage of a girl one time while I was extremely drunk and thank god she pushed me off. I think about how I acted everyday and 1 year later I never acted like that again. It's the most immature, rude, disrespectful action ANYONE can make.
I wish I could say that you'll find a guy who will respect you, but I know you wont believe me. I wont even really believe me. What the fuck happenned that men are such fucking assholes that dont give a shit about feelings?
Evan, the anti-man

 

[chrissie]

::::sigh::::
>>>>hugs<<<<
im here if you need me gurl*

 

[Spencer]

I'm sorry you had to go through that hun. And I'm sorry you had to see the man that the rest of us have already seen.