Lol^
Do like me, make provisions, ordered 200+ flubromazolam 1mg gelcaps and 125 0.5mg clonazolam gelcaps. Of course that requires monies...but I worked my ass off even while in withdrawal, carrying clonidine with me all the time. 12mg of bupe isn't cutting it anymore (thats what im wd from, 2 days without it now, will get it tomorrow), but I won't raise the dose, no way I'm making getting off that crap even harder. It'd be easier to cut off if I wasn't forced to take my only pharmacy dose in front of the pharmacist and walk around the waiting area until i can show them the pills have turned into paste, ridiculous, the owner of the pharmacy, thank fuck he is there most of the time I show up on tuesdays doesn't make me do that humiliating crap and makes me leave with my 6 takehome doses right away knowing I work at fucking 8h30 and they open at 8h, don't have time for this.
If I get lucky, like when I order during the weekend, I should get these gelcaps maybe this week, being very eastern in Canada has advantages when it comes to Europe, have gotten packages in 5 days before, sent through normal mail, I'll get the stuff friday. Then starts a very stern taper schedule with my diazepam, 1mg a month taken out, maybe every 3 weeks, 19mg, 18mg, 17mg and so on. While if I flip, I can have a flubro or clonaz gelcap, which I'll give to my gf which she'll hide somewhere. My psychiatrists agreed to this pattern (well, unknowing of the foreign aid), knowing last time i wanted to get off 2x2mg clonaz a day, I did it and reduced my benzo intake by 66% so...yeah, when I came up with this he stopped being argumentative about how that'll be too long. I told him about Dr Ashton like last time, he seemed to have forgotten that I have her freaking book, so I bring it to my appointments every time. To him, I could drop by 5mg every week and endure the rest with oxcarbazepine...lolno, not interested, thats what he tried to push first.
Okay this isn't the psychiatrist bitching thread, i'm sure it exists, but the subjects were kinda in here, if my strategy can offer some insight into how to get out of the grip of benzos, maybe it's all for good. To think I never had benzos and was scripted Seconals ( 15 every year) for exam anxiety in high school and early college, then they took out all worthy barbs, then my doc replaced it with 15 Placidyls, then of course health canada removed it 2 years later. Harpo Government fuck you! Gonna listen to the last Agnostic Front album and get some frustration out, it's incredible how they manage to mix all their styles from since 1981 in that one, so many songs that'd fit Victim In Pain in there. Anyways, it's gonna be a bummer to walk to these community boxes like if I lived in the country (one of their huge 1st argument 15-20% of Canadians already go to community boxes). Yeah it's cos they live in the MIDDLE OF NOWHERE, like my dad heh.