I hate the sun....

DaysNDaze

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Maybe I'm really just a weirdo but I actually dislike natural light. More specifically, natural white light. I like summer and warm weather but I hate the brightness the peers through windows with curtains pulled back. I have no problem with artifical light. I prefer when its dark and don't even like to leave my house when its light out, if I do, I feel uncomfortable and anxious...is there a name for this phenomena? I tried doing some research but didn't really find anything helpful, except for some literature on seasonal affective disorder that affects people in the summer instead of winter. I can't say thats the same thing I'm experiencing because I prefer to be in the dark all year round.

I've worked graveyard shift for the last 7 years of my life, maybe my brain thinks darkness is the new normal?

I take vitamin D supplements as well since I avoid going out during daylight hours.
 
I don't know man, I hate the morning society but I do love the sunlight. But I remember a Greek drug song saying somewhere "the light that comes through the window makes me sick", so I guess you are not the only one, though in the song the hate for the sunlight comes as an effect of drugs. Could that be your case? What drugs do you use?
Generally, only a proffessional could tell you something sertainly true, but since you ask here for opinions, my opinion is that it's most probably phsychological. Connected with some kind of depression or anxienty or whatever.
The sunlight is nesseccery for u, with out that depression and what else ever will become greately worse, so I would suggest that you fight this intolerance to the sunlight, using what help you can get.
But as I'm just some random guy surfing the net. You should ask a proffessional.
 
I'm a bit the same, but i'm fairskinned and live in australia (hole in the ozone layer makes the sunlight a lot stronger, brighter and more likely to cause sunburn and skin cancer).
I don't like the way the sun feels here, but in the northern hemisphere it feels much gentler and more benign.
I've leant towards being nocturnal for many years also. You become accustomed to it after years of working nights, in my experience.

Whenever i have few daytime obligations, i happily slip back into a nocturnal lifestyle - but it wreaks havoc on my life when i'm working 9-5 hours.
I imagine it could be pretty bad for your social life if your friends aren't night owls, but i don't really have this problem.

As for the question about seasonal affective disorder - i don't know, but this year i moved from a really hot place to a cooler one, and i'm enjoying the (start of the) australian summer for once, but i'm not sure how relevant that is; i just don't like excessive heat.
 
I don't know man, I hate the morning society but I do love the sunlight. But I remember a Greek drug song saying somewhere "the light that comes through the window makes me sick", so I guess you are not the only one, though in the song the hate for the sunlight comes as an effect of drugs. Could that be your case? What drugs do you use?
Generally, only a proffessional could tell you something sertainly true, but since you ask here for opinions, my opinion is that it's most probably phsychological. Connected with some kind of depression or anxienty or whatever.
The sunlight is nesseccery for u, with out that depression and what else ever will become greately worse, so I would suggest that you fight this intolerance to the sunlight, using what help you can get.
But as I'm just some random guy surfing the net. You should ask a proffessional.

I'll still go out during daylight hours, I just don't like to. Was just reaching out to see if this is a thing. Doctors in my area treat patients like numbers and really don't try to figure out the real issue. I'm pretty sure a doctor would tell me to get another job, take vitamin D (which I'm already taking) or treat me for some kind of depression. I'm already addicted to opiates, I'd rather not go down the benzo road.

Also, yes, I take opiates. Almost every day.
 
Yeah, benzos can be very damaging.
I think opiates have a tendency to cause delayed sleep pattern disorders in frequent users, i wonder if that's related?
For adapting your sleep cycle and circadian rhythm, melatonin can be pretty effective (sometimes in conjunction with something that makes you sleepy) - at least in my experience.

Are you troubled by this aversion to daylight? I guess that's a safe assumption given that you're seeking answers - but i guess maybe you could be seeking to understand it.
 
Yeah, benzos can be very damaging.
For adapting your sleep cycle and circadian rhythm, melatonin can be pretty effective (sometimes in conjunction with something that makes you sleepy) - at least in my experience.

Are you troubled by this aversion to daylight? I guess that's a safe assumption given that you're seeking answers - but i guess maybe you could be seeking to understand it.

Yes, mostly seeking to understand it.

I guess the only way it affects my life is the fact that if I do go out during daylight, it takes me FOREVER to "get ready" and actually go, because like I said the white light makes me feel uncomfortable. But for the most part, my job is at night, I can visit friends in the evening, I can keep my curtains closed, so I can avoid light. Just days like today, on my days off, I have things to do, and I'm dragging my ass because its really bright outside and I know how I'm going to feel when I go out.
 
Ah yeah i get it.
Your post above reminds me of this song by the velvet underground. I played it for a friend once, who listened to the first verse and said "fucking junkies" ;)

All the best - i don't really know what you (and i, perhaps) are experiencing or why - but i hope you get some interesting replies in the thread.
 
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Perhaps you should consider moving to Fairbanks, where I used to live.

It's dark 24 hours a day in the winter months. It drives most people insane (myself included) but you'd probably love it ;)
 
Ah yeah i get it.
Your post above reminds me of this song by the velvet underground. I played it for a friend once, who listened to the first verse and said "fucking junkies" ;)

All the best - i don't really know what you (and i, perhaps) are experiencing or why - but i hope you get some interesting replies in the thread.

Thank you for your input :) Yes, I'm hoping for some interesting replies.

And maybe enough so I can finally be a bluelighter lol.
 
So you do go out but you just don't like it. Ok then that doesn't sound that wrong. I mean some people love rains, I hate rains. I like sunlight, others don't. It's seems just a matter of personality, nothing serious.
 
Yeah, benzos can be very damaging.
I think opiates have a tendency to cause delayed sleep pattern disorders in frequent users, i wonder if that's related?
For adapting your sleep cycle and circadian rhythm, melatonin can be pretty effective (sometimes in conjunction with something that makes you sleepy) - at least in my experience.

Are you troubled by this aversion to daylight? I guess that's a safe assumption given that you're seeking answers - but i guess maybe you could be seeking to understand it.

Now that I think of it, I think my brain is doing exactly what I've been telling it to do for the last 7 years.

I went out earlier, and one thing I noticed is that when I came home I felt exhausted and groggy (I messed up my normal night sleep pattern also by going to bed at what most people would consider 'normal' time last night, so I was already kind of laggy from that to begin with). Anyways, I wonder if exposure to light triggers my brain to think its time for bed.

As for the opiate use affecting sleep cycles, I wouldn't doubt it. Sometimes if I'm really high I sleep terribly, if I FORCE myself to try to sleep when I'm high. If Im just really tired and pass out, I noticed it takes me longer to fall asleep but once I'm asleep I'm like comatosed lol, sleep really deep for anywhere between 8 and 11 hours.
 
I used to love the Sun when in was younger but now, after 16 years on opiates, I can't stand it. I have tried sitting out in the garden to get a tan but I can't sunbathe for long. I would like to spend more time in the Sun but it just makes me feel shit. It drains me. It wasn't this bad my first few years on opiates but it gradually got worse.
 
I've never enjoyed the sun and have always found it painful after the first fifteen minutes on my skin. I was born a red head with pale skin so it doesn't take long for me to burn and blister and freckle, even with sun block. Unfortunately I have not had the opportunity to have a night job so I have to coexist with the sun. For years I have worn long sleeves, pants, and a large brim hat when I have to be out. You're not alone in your feelings :)
 
I used to love the Sun when in was younger but now, after 16 years on opiates, I can't stand it. I have tried sitting out in the garden to get a tan but I can't sunbathe for long. I would like to spend more time in the Sun but it just makes me feel shit. It drains me. It wasn't this bad my first few years on opiates but it gradually got worse.

I'm not a big fan of the Sun either. And when I talk about that it seems to bother most of my colleagues and friends who come from dark and cloudy regions. It's a blessing for most people but I got used to the shadows, perhaps because of my life was a couple years ago. I have never really related that this could have been a side effect, but now that you've mentioned, it all makes sense.
 
I live in Scotland where we don't get much Sun but its still uncomfortable for me when it does. You often see those gothic people who reckon their are vampires, usually because they watch some of those teenage TV shows about vampires. I don't need blood to live I needed heroin.
 
I'm not a big fan of the Sun either. And when I talk about that it seems to bother most of my colleagues and friends who come from dark and cloudy regions. It's a blessing for most people but I got used to the shadows, perhaps because of my life was a couple years ago. I have never really related that this could have been a side effect, but now that you've mentioned, it all makes sense.

Seems to be the common denominator from what I've gathered so far.

Come to think of it, I think I remember seeing some kind of warning on an opiate prescription bottle that said something like "avoid long term sun exposure when using this medication". Don't remember which one it was though.
 
I used to love the Sun when in was younger but now, after 16 years on opiates, I can't stand it. I have tried sitting out in the garden to get a tan but I can't sunbathe for long. I would like to spend more time in the Sun but it just makes me feel shit. It drains me. It wasn't this bad my first few years on opiates but it gradually got worse.

Same. I used to love it too. After 8 years on opiates this is where I'm at. Its comforting to know I'm not alone.
 
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