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I hate sleeping.

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zombiesarepeaceful

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I do. For as long as I can remember, I've always hated sleeping. I'm actually afraid of it. I don't know why. It doesn't bother me though. Being awake is more fun and productive.

But when I tell people I hate sleeping, they look at me like I'm crazy. Am I the only one here who hates sleeping??!?
 
For the past few months after coming off Suboxone I have felt the exact same way. Like you I genuinely fear going to bed and so end up being awake for long periods of time and having a very messed up sleeping pattern (well actually, there is no pattern and that's the point). Even if tired I will have to force myself to go to bed, and if it wasn't for knowing that I have to be somewhat functional the next day, I would probably be going 3 day stretches of wakefulness.

Basically it seems to be because I know the quality of sleep is going to be poor, waking up constantly, and having either nightmares, or (more often) just really inane repetitive/depressing dreams, which are in many ways even more disconcerting than the nightmares. I pretty much *never* get enjoyable/creative/sexy dreams anymore. There's also just this inexplicable "uncomfortable" feeling while trying to sleep (mentally, not physically), sort of like I'm doing something wrong... hard to explain, but very unpleasant.

Having said that, before I entered the withdrawal period, I always enjoyed sleep just like (nearly) everyone else. Do you have any thoughts as to what might be causing your situation??

Buying a really comfy new pillow and trying my hardest to be busy throughout the day is the only thing that helped (a bit). I'm actually very worried that I may have permanently ruined my ability to sleep properly.
 
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AminoAcid said:
Having said that, before I entered the withdrawal period, I always enjoyed sleep just like (nearly) everyone else. Do you have any thoughts as to what might be causing your situation??

Buying a really comfy new pillow and trying my hardest to be busy throughout the day is the only thing that helped (a bit). I'm actually very worried that I may have permanently ruined my ability to sleep properly.
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I have no clue. I can only guess that maybe something traumatic happened to me as a child that I don't remember...or maybe I just plain don't like sleeping for no reason. I think sleeping is a waste of time anyway....and when you sleep you just disappear into blackness. Unconscious. I don't like that. For all I know I could be dead and never wake up (even though I believe in an afterlife so I would know I'm dead, but still)

It's cool we don't need a sleep pattern lol...that shit's for the weak

Mel22 said:
Sounds like it could be due to anxiety?
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Yeah I have really high anxiety related to sleeping
 
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Have you ever browsed the Wikipedia article on Hypnophobia?

Apparently it's relatively common, as far as anxiety disorders go. How many hours would you say you sleep in a week?
 
MrGrunge said:
Have you ever browsed the Wikipedia article on Hypnophobia?

Apparently it's relatively common, as far as anxiety disorders go. How many hours would you say you sleep in a week?
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In a week like...40. It depends on how afraid I am of sleeping that week. Lol. I'm trying to train myself to sleep less though. Like 5 hrs a day is more than enough
 
40 hours seems relatively normal. Basically, you feel anxiety about sleeping, but not to the point where it seriously interferes with your life?

If you're really interested in altering your sleep cycle in order to minimize the amount of time you sleep, read up on some of these cool sleep cycles. I'd give you massive props for managing to get on the Uberman schedule.
 
Well it depends on my mood I guess. I just don't sleep your standard 8 hrs a day. My friends make me feel abnormal cause they LOVE sleeping. I've read about those sleep cycles, and I wish I could do only 2 hrs a day...that would be fantastic. Problem is, I don't hear alarms so taking 30 minute naps might not work for me haha cuz I wouldn't hear an alarm


Also, if I'm able to sleep with someone I know and trust and can cuddle with, I still wake up alot which is fine with me, but I'm not as scared of falling asleep. But I don't get the chance to sleep with anybody very often
 
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Zombiesarepeaceful : You could try a relaxation mantra along with meditation before bed to help you get into a routine. Once a routine is established, you may find decreased anxiety and have an easier time falling asleep.
 
I went through a stage where I hated sleeping, it was due to anxiety, and another time from fear of vivid dreams due to diet.

If you dont already, get plenty of sun in the mornings (1 hour), or use a light visor, this will let your brain produce more melatonin at night so you feel sleepy, and also do some exercise but not too late, and wear sunglasses in the afternoon sun and keep your rooms dim at night.

All this helps a lot, you will want to sleep and you will get good sleep.

If you still have the problem I would say its hypnophobia, do you work or study in your bedroom? your bedroom should be a low stress environment, maybe you have stress in your household.

The above post is useful, dont go to bed and force yourself to try sleep, try do some relaxing exercises try to stare at something and do some meditation, the increased melatonin will help you relax to do this.

And most importantly avoid caffeine in the afternoon and night, morning is okay.
 
I have a love/hate relationship with sleep for the most part. Because there's no happy medium sometimes. Either sleeping far too much or not at all. :/
 
Sleep related anxiety is usually related to post-trauma, IME. It's connected to not feeling safe to let go. Even if you don't feel there is a specific situation causing you anxiety right now, your sleep patterns are formed over long-term association. i.e. growing up in an abusive household, having intense things happen in the past that interrupted your sleep in shocking ways, etc.
 
Between sleeping and eating I wouldn't mind not having to do both for survival.

Always wished I could just plug myself into the wall and charge up or be the guy in "Crank" who gets energy from jolts of electricity.
 
I don't like sleeping. Not because of anxiety, but because it's a massive waste of time. Imagine how much more we could do if we didn't have to sleep!
 
I went to bed at 3p and woke up at 530p to feed the pets then went back to bed and woke up at 130am to let the cats in then went back to bed and woke up at 630am to fed the pets and let the dog out went back to bed until 830a and forced myself to get up to get shit done that I didn't do yesterday.

Nothing good usually comes of that much sleep for me but I was cold sick and feel no worse today which makes me happy.

I hate not being able to sleep. I would fear NOT being able to sleep. It is essential for your well being.
 
I am the same way. I wish I liked sleeping, but most of the time I am just not tired when it comes time to go to bed. IT's annoying as hell, but now I'm prescribed seroquel so that kind of helps.
 
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