I just started to experiment with MDMA about 2 months ago. Since then I have done it about 3 or 4 times. I am going to discipline myself to keep it to once every ~3 months to "keep the magic" and not destroy my brain, but this feeling I get when I think about popping the pills is nuts. I honestly don't think I have felt anything better. I actually enjoy the feeling of being high on MDMA more than sex. Does this mean I'm addicted? I know that there is no physiological addiction to MDMA, but I wish I could feel the way I do when I'm rolling all of the time. It kind of concerns me.
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I get tingles in my brain just thinking about my next roll
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AylaV
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I had this feeling at first and kept my use managed for two or three years before I finally broke down (although there were life events that led to this). If you feel you can manage your use, you're not addicted. If you feel the psychological desire to do the drug overpowers your self control, then you are addicted. I know I felt the same way when I first did e. My first thought after the panic attack of coming up / being dosed was "Holy shit, I'm addicted" and, I knew I was despite my self control for the first couple years. Not sure if this helps any, but figured I'd give you my thoughts =)
snowboarder7791
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just stay preoccupied... a busy mind doesnt have time to wonder about rolling lol... i had pills for a year cuz i didnt think about it all the time... 
Thanks for the insight, everyone. I guess it's just hard for me to relate because when I first tried drinking I didn't even like it. Then I continued to do it because everyone else does and now I enjoy it on a regular basis. The same was for smoking weed and now I don't even do that because I just really don't enjoy being a zombie. So for something to just sweep me off the ground and immediately intrigue me so much it almost scares me! I guess I just need to put my willpower to the test. Thanks again!
Rageius
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I had the same exact thoughts when I first started doing ecstasy, I actually started on ecstasy to drinking to smoking (smoking always used to give me panic attacks and I wouldn't drink because the taste wasn't worth it). I got into a phase where I popped pills weekly during the school year because I LOVED IT THAT MUCH. I don't think I was ever addicted honestly, seeing as I stopped using for a month in an attempt to reduce my tolerance and then did the same thing again with ease. But at the time, I had little concern for my health and seriously didn't think rolling could damage the brain at all, and that's pretty much why I rarely took breaks. I'd say one of the big reasons I don't use ecstasy as much anymore is simply because I started thinking about how much damage I was doing to my brain and now I shudder every time I think about using it within a month time frame (although it should be 2-3). what was the theme of my post? if you want to do ecstasy the golden rule should be to always take breaks, unless you want to end up taking 4 pokeballs and just feeling the negative effects of ecstasy like jaw clenching sweating etc with absolutely no euphoria just thinking about how bad your head might be messed up. JUST MAKE SURE TO TAKE BREAKS
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Yep it will go away with time. Your brain isn't accustomed with the experience yet and it is still very new and magical to you. With a few more rolls you will kind of know what to expect but still won't at the same time. It's the honey moon
socalthizzn
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I know exsctly what mean. Feels like a rush alll ur hair stands up?