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  • TDS Moderators: AlphaMethylPhenyl | paranoid android

I fucked up.

hey man. you are a friend. i remember the compassion you showed me when you replied to my post. listen, i don't know much about your situation so I don't know exactly what you're going through, but you are not alone. I've been in fucked up situations as well and the only reason why I'm not doing drugs at the moment is because I can't afford them and/or don't know any dealers around. it happens to the best of us man. it only took me 2 hits of meth to become addicted and honestly, I do want to do it again, but I motivate myself by telling myself that I do not want my life to get any worse. that is what you need to do. if you can't get ahead in life, at least try to minimize the damage. minimize the damage as much as possible because as you said, we are gonna be around for a long-ass time so focus on getting clean, putting some money in the bank, and find a career. that is what every one of us has to do. I know in my life, I have some mother fucking problems. Because of the stigma of mental illness, I cannot share it with anyone. I am faced with tremendous odds every single day. If I finished the day unscathed (meaning no car accidents, no drug usage, no unintentional crime of any sort, and no problems) I am only 80 dollars richer which is nothing compared to the enormous debt I have. But that is what it takes to survive in this age. I don't have the right to compare your life to others because I haven't walked in your shoes, so I am not one to judge. But I wish you well, and you will always have a friend in New York. So I assume that you been to jail and now have a criminal record. I don't know what you can do, but I can tell you, my life is sucking pretty bad too, so your not alone!!
~Best Wishes
 
seriously, i think the best possible thing to happen is for none of us here to be alive in the morning to post again. seriously! forreal! life can actually suck this bad. and yall can't even imagine the shit I been through just recently. my paranoid OCD is going to consume me faster than my chest pains and kidney stones or the government who is trying to aggressively take away whatever little money I managed to scrape these past two weeks!!
 
i seriously mean no offense to anyone. i wish you all well and happy. but a couple of us on here are too pissed off to be alive at the moment
 
deadendgame said:
i seriously mean no offense to anyone. i wish you all well and happy. but a couple of us on here are too pissed off to be alive at the moment
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No offense given or taken. And I know how that feels, fucking sucks. Hang on in there, life's a series of twists and turns and will look up eventually. Although yea - it can be a right grind a lot of the time.
 
deadendgame said:
i seriously mean no offense to anyone. i wish you all well and happy. but a couple of us on here are too pissed off to be alive at the moment
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I'm so glad you're here! We have power in numbers. I'm feeling better, I totally understand the mental health aspect of it. My anxiety is still all over the place which I think is just normal when I'm sober. I'm taking it day by day. I'm glad you're still alive my friend. Much love to you. Stay strong!
 
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