ageingpartyfiend
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Nah, you have got fucked in the ass too much. The problem is in you, not me.
am not into anal either way tbh, much to your disappointment

Nah, you have got fucked in the ass too much. The problem is in you, not me.
Nobody asked you ***mod edit***.am not into anal either way tbh, much to your disappointment![]()
Nah, i just don't have morals.Surprised so many of you pay for it. Wonder if it's representative of the whole or just the demographic.
Bro, it's just me. There's army of rampant George Soros and Chinese Communist Party funded mercenaries and neo-marxists here. I'm the resistance. I don't have much support, but i will die for my cause.Wow. This thread took a turn while I posting the above! Lol!
There is one thing I have to say:
This site is fantastic. Never in my life have I found a forum where people are so open and honest and straight forward and pull no punches. It's a far cry from all this political correct crap that we're forced to swallow. Fuck. Real compliments that I used to pay to woman at work some years ago: I'd get fucking arrested for nowadays. Pathetic. Anyway. Time for me to pop. a Alprozalam or two and calm the fuck down (because I'm starting to enjoy this just a little too much)! Lol!
But do play nice chaps. There is a certain commonality or brotherhood between us all on forums like these (otherwise there'd be no members i.e. most other people would run a mile)!
Yeah, the neo-marxists found out where i was keeping my base so they started attacking the rehab facility. I had to escape. I got out in to real world and got my old funding&contacts. Now i'm hiding from the antifa until backup comes.I like your style.
Now about this rehab thing? Lol! Are we done with that for the time being or what? Lol!
Its pretty common place in countries where its legal like NZ especially for guys who cant find a girlfriend who are in the drug scene. Majority of escorts clients are drug dealers. Honestly most escorts i have met are quite nice to talk to which appeals to alot of men who don't have somebody to talk to.Surprised so many of you pay for it. Wonder if it's representative of the whole or just the demographic.
Its pretty common place in countries where its legal like NZ especially for guys who cant find a girlfriend who are in the drug scene. Majority of escorts clients are drug dealers. Honestly most escorts i have met are quite nice to talk to which appeals to alot of men who don't have somebody to talk to.
Its pretty common place in countries where its legal like NZ especially for guys who cant find a girlfriend who are in the drug scene. Majority of escorts clients are drug dealers. Honestly most escorts i have met are quite nice to talk to which appeals to alot of men who don't have somebody to talk to.
Morning all.
Geez. I don't know if it's these forums or this COVID-19 lockdown shit or the events of the past year or so: but man I'm starting to remember things from WAY back that have happened during my "career" i.e. things that I've never given a second thought to until now! Lol!
Based on some of the latest posts (in no particular order)...
Yeh. A real and even darker side of prostitution is underage prostitution. That's where I think everybody here draws the line. It's a travesty (and that's a gross understatement). I don't have any first hand experience with this i.e. knowledge only based on what I've read/heard/seen on TV. But man: it's the worst and how anybody (the traffickers and pimps) could make money out of that is beyond anything that my brain is able to conceive. This being said: some of these girls are tough man. I watched a documentary on Al Jazeera once (I think it was Al Jazeera anywy i.e. long time ago) when this young girl had been pimped by her parents, not less, to support the family. But somehow she made it through, got and education, and if I recall correctly went on to be an famous and well known activist (I just really don't remember her name right now). That sure takes guts and perseverance and a special type of person. Unfortunately this would definitely be a huge exception rather than the norm lets face it. But respect to her (whoever she is) and anybody else that's been through this.
Somebody also mentioned something above that sort of reminded me of something. All those times I picked somebody up just to have a few drinks with and do a few lines or rocks with: I always remember feeling pretty sad afterward thinking what a shame it is that I never had enough or a good enough friend that I could do this shit with and had to pay for the company. I remember that feeling well today for some reason. Never been one to have many friends and yet I'm an extrovert to a large degree. Don't believe I'm too shit looking either (Lol!). Just never been one of those lucky enough to have been able to walk into a club or pub and just pick somebody up (used to have a friend who'd be in the bathroom with somebody within five minutes of arriving anywhere). A friend once told me it's because of the way I carry myself and dress (the white collar and tie type). And the way I used to handle booze. Used to be a big joke between us i.e. he said your (my) problem is that you walk into a place with an aura, dressed to the nines, survey the place like you own it, walk up to the bar and order a drink, and that's when things go pear shaped. Drink arrives and it's gone in two seconds flat (whatever it was e.g. double rum and coke or whatever it was at the time) and then order another one! And that was an "impression killer" right there! Lol! And taking somebody out to dinner was usually a nightmare i.e. I'd be on my third drink while she was still taking her first sip of wine! Lol! What can I say. That's who I am (was). And in looking back now after all these years: fuck them. At least I enjoyed myself and didn't just sit there eating expensive food and sitting with a mouthful of teeth! Lol! Never abusive or rude either i.e. just a good sense of humor (well I thought so anyway). Couple of laughs was the expectation. Nothing more.
Also thought of something else this morning (and oh boy I can just see the feminists coming out on this one! Lol!). There is indeed a school of though that goes something along the lines of what's the difference between hiring a hooker or spending hundreds of USD on expensive drinks and dinners in the PARTIAL hope that it's going to lead to something else? Lol! I'm not one of those that's ever taken somebody out, paid for dinner, and then expected something in return. That I can honestly say (although I think that was in the old days and somehow as the years have gone by guys have fucked that up to the extent where woman will not even let them pay for dinner nowadays for fear of this expectation that's somehow crept in over the years). Not going to lie: sometimes it would have been nice. But wasn't expected or a quid pro quo type situation. Fuck. I was besotted with somebody for well over two years. She had a particular penchant for prawns (some call them shrimps) and crayfish and champagne. Two years of expensive dinners and fancy restaurants and the closest I ever came was sitting next to her in the car on the way to and from dinner. I'm convinced to this day that she's the reason prawns and crayfish almost became extinct! Lol! It was the weirdest of "relationships" i.e. eventually got the feeling she wanted nothing to do with me but was quite fine being seen with me and eating every crayfish in the sea! Lol! Quite funny actually: what "cured" me of her was that one night after dinner she asked if she could borrow some money from me (short on rent or some bullshit excuse). I dropped the cash off the next day and that was the end of that i.e. never bothered with her again. Weirdest thing ever.
Lastly (dunno why I'm pouring my heart out this morning! Lol!). I remember picking somebody up just to spend some time with and do the usual shit i.e. some lines and rocks. Took her to my place and she made us coffee and then asked the weirdest thing i.e. asked if she could take a cooking pot of mine home as she didn't have a pot to cook things in. Of course I said sure no problem. When time was up I took her home and she then asked me if I had some more money for some more rocks so I gave her some money. She told me to wait in the car and I thought "what's this all about" (and it wasn't the most savory of neighborhoods either). Not two minutes later she came running out of her place (she was living with and cooking and cleaning for her fucking foreign pimp who was also a dealer) to give me half the stuff she'd just bought for me to take home for myself. Never forget that (well I had until now anyway). Wonder what happened to her? I remember she had a uni. degree and I guess somehow ended up getting too involved in the drug scene and, well, one thing led to another and that's what she was doing and where she'd ended up by the time I met her. Sad.
Anyway. Maybe when it comes to shit like this I've got "sucker" written all over my face. Dunno. But for sure: I know I've only been decent to these individuals, treated them with respect as I would anybody else, and, well, who knows, maybe made just those few hours better for them when they were with with me. If that's what I did indeed accomplish: well so be it. That's good enough for me. For sure I no longer feel shame for meeting these people. With hindsight and knowing what I know now (now having no friends at all since all the money and fancy cars and parties and booze are no more): one or two of these people probably had better morals and principals than quite a few "normal" people I've had the pleasure (or displeasure) of meeting or dealing with over the years that's for sure.
Oh well. Not the most uplifting of posts for first thing in the morning. But enjoyed telling the stories anyway.
This is me 100%. I can have sex with condom, but they break all the time. Used to have without them tho.Probably not the most constructive post, because I've never paid for sex..but I wanted to say that condoms don't work for me. I started having sex when I was 19 and at university. Condoms always broke before I even got aroused, it was ridiculous
So I just started going bareback but it was only with two girls. I guess my point is, no they don't work and I got that numbing sensation a few times, the dozen or so times I tried them, but again..they broke every single time before I was even aroused
I think condoms are a joke and I avoid having sex with people I don't know
Hello.
My DOC was Cocaine (any form including rocks would do). I say “was” because I have not used since the late ‘90’s/very early 2000’s save for one pathetic rock sometime last year that was anything but Cocaine. As I’ve explained somewhere else: after many years of use back then the quality just started dropping to the point where one day I just said fuck it i.e. I’m spending fortunes on nothing more than baking soda and fuck knows what else it was being cut with. So I guess I’m one of the lucky ones as I usually am. I was able to just walk away with no side effects or anything like that. Only with a burning anger for all the money that I’d wasted with dishonest dealers and whatever the cut flavor of the day was.
The above is one of the reasons I don’t fly the sobriety flag or think I’m a hero for just being able to stop using after many many years of use. There’s absolutely no doubt in my mind that had I had a constant supply of the same Cocaine that I started out with in the very early ‘80’s that my life would have ended up in ruins and very differently. I didn’t have to lose the farm or hit rock bottom to quit. In some strange twist of fate: it was the fucking dealers that slowly but surely were weaning me and tapering me off! Quite funny that now that I think of it in that sense. Psychologically a different story. Took years for me to stop thinking about the shit. But I at least had the savvy to say to myself (when I got the urge and usually after a good long business lunch with much booze flowing) don’t bother i.e. it’s still going to be shit now if not worse so why bother.
Have not touched any other drug since then so been clean for, let's say, about eighteen years or so maybe? Only things I’m on now (for what must be now about four to six weeks) is Prozac and Alprozalam. But it is becoming very clear that all the Alprozalam is doing is keeping me from losing it because of my anger about the way things have turned out. It’s not aiding me or abetting me to get off of my arse and try get my new venture off the ground if possible. Had that thought today only an hour ago oddly enough.
Anyway. I hope that answers your question. Not sure why you asked. But if it was to find out if drugs were the reason for my ending up in this fucked up losing situation the answer is no. Matter of fact I even stopped having a few drinks last year (getting too old to handle the hangovers because I can never do things in small measures or in moderation i.e. used to not drink often but when I did I made a good job of it).
Truth be told it’s one of the reasons I’m so bitter about where I’ve ended up. I cannot even blame drugs or alcohol or use them as an excuse for ending up here. I think that would have made me feel better in some fucked up way.
But and after all is said and done: Fentanyl is my (next) “it” (for many reasons). Fentanyl and the purest Cocaine I can lay my hands on (even if I have to make it myself! Lol!). But whatever happens I have made one promise to myself and that is that if I am going out I am going out pissed on some good Whisky, high as a kite, and with a smile on my face! Lol! Fuck that. I’ve paid my dues. But we shall see. Maybe I manage to pull my new venture off. Stranger things have happened in my life I’ll tell you. All things being equal I could very well get my life back save for those one or two things that can never be replaced and that I will just have to live with. But that’s a bit easier to do when you’ve piles of cash and can get as high as the sky when the mourning and sorrow get too much to handle.
Hope that answers your questions.
Oh. As to where to get (what used to be) my DOC. Cocaine is probably the easiest drug on the planet to get a hold of so use your imagination. Just how good the quality is going to be: well now there’s the unfortunate unknown.
Edit:
Shit. Sorry. I just realized that most of my answer above may seem dilly and out of context i.e. I was thinking that I was replying to you on another thread (link below) where I've posted the gory details of my situation and my intentions. Sorry about that. Lol!
Greetings from Switzerland
Hello everybody, i'm Dani from Switzerland First of all a big thank you for being accepted into this family. Too bad I haven't found you before. Unfortunately my English is too bad, so I can only communicate with you via Google Translate. But that doesn't work too badly. Some information...www.bluelight.org
Reading this post without reading my other posts on that other thread will probably make no sense at all. Sorry about that. But after all this typing above: I ain't about to delete it all and post it somewhere else! Lol!