i woke up happy this morning now i am in a miserable mood. every morning the same routine of spending over an hour waking my fiance up. when he eventually did get up its because his daughter, my step daughter had arrived. i like the kid dont get me wrong but she is just sooo demanding and craves all of her dads attention so i feel the best thing for me to do is get out of the way only he gets annoyed at this. i dont wanna sit and watch cartoons or listen to a 4 year old shouting daddy every 10 seconds...maybe i am a little jealous. i feel so bad that i sometimes cant wait for her to go back to her mothers so i can have sme peace and quiet.....its always much tho better when he isnt there cos she doesnt crave my attention as much, we actually played together earlier and it was good fun. i hate how i feel about it. it hard to love someone that isnt your own tho, a child that challenges me at that. i dont want to be in competition for kierhans affections, he daughter should win hands down either way, maybe thats what scares me???
i try my best though and thats all that matters huh?
just watched marley and me for the 2nd time, i really enjoyed it! it was super sad at the end tho. sorta made me want a pet....its getting t that time of day now...the boredom kicks in. i feel like i am becoming miserable lately, sex isnt as good....i am snappy with the man i love. it like it isnt enough! i need some excitement. i love him so much but the routine is becoming hard work. i need to mix it up a little.
did 2 pregnancy tests. one yesterday afternoon and one this morning. both negative! i know my mum confirmed that i shouldnt test until new year i just want the result to be positive so bad. its really getting me down. supposed to be fun but the waiting is doing my head in!
i try my best though and thats all that matters huh?
just watched marley and me for the 2nd time, i really enjoyed it! it was super sad at the end tho. sorta made me want a pet....its getting t that time of day now...the boredom kicks in. i feel like i am becoming miserable lately, sex isnt as good....i am snappy with the man i love. it like it isnt enough! i need some excitement. i love him so much but the routine is becoming hard work. i need to mix it up a little.
did 2 pregnancy tests. one yesterday afternoon and one this morning. both negative! i know my mum confirmed that i shouldnt test until new year i just want the result to be positive so bad. its really getting me down. supposed to be fun but the waiting is doing my head in!