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i feel like my life is fu...kd i cant break free of the oxys help

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wishinihadoxy

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ok i am in need of some real advice on what i should do

So let me start like this. my drug problem started when my grandma would give me a full bottle of norco every month bekuz i told her it helped me worK when in fact it did so my tolerance started low mybe 1 half of a norco every hour for about 6 hours so i would be bassicly taking 3 norco a day. Then my tolerance started skyrocketing by the end of the first year i was taking 17 norco daily
every day .THEN MY FRIEND SHOWED ME SOMTHING EVEN BETTER WHICH HAPPEND TO BE OXYCODONE 30mg tabs so i found my self taking 3 a day now im up to 10-12 oxys a day and i dont have anymore money to get more and i am being forced to get threw withdrawl with a shit load of xanx wich helps for about a hour then i need more



POINT BEING I VE TRIED QUITING COLD TURKEY BUT THAT LITTERY HAD ME PLAINING A ROBBERY AT A PHARMACY BUT THANK GOD I DIDNT DO THAT i dont know what to do anymore i find my self stealing from all my loved ones and that makes me wana die so much

so i would appriciate if someone can help me with what to do the worst part of the withdrawl i can barley get threw day 1 and byu day 2 im loading my gun heading to the pharmacy but my wife aways talks me out of it i dont have insurance so i cant get on suboxone or methadone and i dont make much money the reason i was getting 12 oxy 30s a day was the price was 10 each but o wana quit so bad but i can never get threw the first day



it gets so bad i littlery dream about bying them and then when i wake up i cry bekuz it was just a dream some one please tell me things i can take to prevent all the withdrawl symptoms that i can get without a prescripton
 
Thats a pretty hefty habit, and it sounds like you're well past the point of just being physically dependent. Chances are that even if you manage to make it through the withdrawal you'll go right back. Consider checking yourself into rehab dude. If nothing else it will remove you from the situation and give you some time to develop some willpower.

If thats not an option and you're just looking for a way to get through the physical withdrawal there are several threads on that topic if you use the search engine. But be advised that theres much more to quitting than just the withdrawal. Good luck man.
 
if i was you man id get a bottle of immodium (it works on the opioid recepters in the body but doesnt cross the blood-brain-barrier) and also i would try my very best to find someone to buy some subs off of. you will be able to function on 2-4 mg so it wont be too much money at all.
 
BTW, I dont condone going out and committing armed robbery to support your addiction, but i definitely empathize. I how it feels to be that desperate.
 
if you're thinking about robbing a pharmacy i would suggest that you find a doctor that can prescribe subutex and maintain on that
 
hell to the YES

coming off 12 oxys a day the crash is too severe and the mind is in a broken state

im pretty sure he got to the point of just snorting them wich will make the crash 10x more severe

when a girl i dated was into those things she graduated to snorting level, one night i thought she was railing blow off the nightstand come to find out it was the oxys, perks and what ever else pills were around

she was mentally gone from that point
 
You guys need to calm down. I doubt this guy would actually rob a pharmacy. Honestly i bet almost every opiate addict gets that stupid idea at some point or another when they are sick, but its pretty damn rare for someone to actually go through with it.

The best thing this dude can do is let his entire family know so they can try to help him out. When you're in a situation like that where you're spending 100 bucks a day on drugs it puts you in a horrible mental state. I've been there before and it sucks, but no matter how much i suffered i never got to the point where i would walk into a pharmacy or convenient store with a gun trying to rob the place. Most junkies just resort to petty thievery like stealing from cars or ripping people off in drug deals.

Best advice i can give this dude is to speak to his family. Tell them you are seriously ill and you need medical attention. Hopefully you have family members that can afford to help you out and are compassionate about your addiction. It isn't easy to kick a 300mg/day+ oxycodone habit without any outside help or support. If money is an issue your just going to have to deal with it. Try a short stay at a rehab facility or a hospital just to detox.

The physical part of the withdrawal is usually what keeps people using, but the mental aspect is difficult to deal with as well and many times leads people back after they detox. You have to actually want to get clean.
 
Ignore the foul comments. Do what OEandricearoni said and ask your family to help you get into rehab. Trying to quit on your own at this point is likely to be unsuccessful.

And dont rob any pharmacies. Trust me, you dont want to detox in jail.
 
There's alot of un-needed comments in here.
Wishinihadoxy I have been in your exact situation. What I did was buy kratom. If you're curious about it and want to try it you have to read about it first. I first bought it from a local head shop, then moved on to an internet source. then i found out about loperamide and bought some and that shit worked great, it stopped the withdrawls in their tracks.
You have to eat right when you can get food down and drink water. try and walk around the block everynight. It sounds like you want to quit, so give it a good go and good luck.
 
yup, if you try and rob pharmacies some actually have guards who carry weapons and are authorized to shoot and kill. they don't take it lightly any more in some states, and pharmacy robbers are constantly being put in jail with a hefty addiction, suffering withdrawal through their jail time, and then having to serve long sentences for armed robbery and attempted manslaughter. please do not do that.

have you considered checking into a rehab clininc or getting on a suboxone programme?
 
You need some serious help.. You don't justg need help with your addiction, I have a hunch that you may have some mental issues as well. Do not worry or be mad that I said this, it's probably nothing major, maybe just some depression or something.

Look, aside from all the other reasons that you should not rob a pharmacy.. the real reason is that you will not succeed and will go to jail which will only make everything worse. Trust me, you will not get away with it, I had a friend who tried this in the worst part of his addiction and he was caught immediately. This kind of thing happens more than you would expect and they know how to deal with it a lot better than you do.

You need to go to rehab.. if you can't go to rehab then you need to start going to some meetings.

Also you should consider finding a doctor for therapy sessions, it sounds like you have a lot of stress and depression and possibly something else. If you get help for these problems while getting help for your addiction you will not only feel a whole better than normal, but also you will be way more likely to succeed with breaking your addiction.

Look man, you need to consider all of this on a larger-scale. You are miserable when you try to quit opiates, but you will only withdrawal for 10 days or less. 10 days.. compared to a year of happiness?.. think about it. It really isn't that long, and you will be happy you did it.

With your situation I would consider finding some outside sources (both mental and addiction related) to help you before you actually attempt to do the real-detox.

I wish you luck, and I hope that you will be able to get better. I did... and you know, I'm still having a hard time with my addiction too, but I'm glad I did it, and it gets a lot easier over time, I promise you.
 
offering him a taper protocal is no use at this point, if it was a 20-30 vic or perk pill a day then maybe he would have a shot

the oxy's are just too powerful, i know H users that stay away from it as thier " staple" treat
 
OEandricearoni said:
You guys need to calm down. I doubt this guy would actually rob a pharmacy. Honestly i bet almost every opiate addict gets that stupid idea at some point or another when they are sick, but its pretty damn rare for someone to actually go through with it.

The best thing this dude can do is let his entire family know so they can try to help him out. When you're in a situation like that where you're spending 100 bucks a day on drugs it puts you in a horrible mental state. I've been there before and it sucks, but no matter how much i suffered i never got to the point where i would walk into a pharmacy or convenient store with a gun trying to rob the place. Most junkies just resort to petty thievery like stealing from cars or ripping people off in drug deals.

Best advice i can give this dude is to speak to his family. Tell them you are seriously ill and you need medical attention. Hopefully you have family members that can afford to help you out and are compassionate about your addiction. It isn't easy to kick a 300mg/day+ oxycodone habit without any outside help or support. If money is an issue your just going to have to deal with it. Try a short stay at a rehab facility or a hospital just to detox.

The physical part of the withdrawal is usually what keeps people using, but the mental aspect is difficult to deal with as well and many times leads people back after they detox. You have to actually want to get clean.
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Best post in this whole thread!
 
Rehab man...you went balls deep in that shit, didn't know what you were doing. Not even open for discussion.
 
Dagda Mochta said:
You guys are being pretty judgmental and condescending for a couple of fellow drug users. Some are sicker than others you know. This guy did nothing to you. I would think that people who have some experience would have some compassion for someone asking for help.

Need4speed, why you so hostile? Got sand in your vag?
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Straight up man. Why all the hostility. To answer your question OP, get this shit if you can:

immodium for your gut
klonapin (clonazepam) for your head
lyrica (pregabalin) for your legs
naproxen for your back
cannabis indica (can have some cannabis ruderalis in it too) for nausea and a bit of everything else
if no can do cannabis
then see if ur doc will rx a anti-nausea med - Zofran (ondansetron) worked great IME

The above is good if you don't want to go the Suboxone route (and possibly hinder the effects of full-agonists on your domicile). Don't get me wrong, Suboxone is a life saver, but IME, it is just as much of an opiate/opioid as full-agonists with the exception of having much less effect on one's bowels. IME, it doesn't have significant superiority to full-agonists like morphine, and can give one a headache that lasts weeks on end... :!

Good luck OP, and don't let people get you down with their nasty posts and gad dammit, don't go out robbing some freaking pharmacy..., as you will probably get your dome shot off by SWAT popo's!!!
 
If you're even considering pointing a gun at someone in order to get your fix, then <snip> Time to man-up and accept the fact that you are the one who got yourself into this. It sucks, but that is the exact same dose I was on when I had to quit CT, and I didn't have any xanax. I was in detox for 3 days, and it was in a place where they gave me very little help other than taking my blood pressure regularly and feeding me. Minimum meds and booted me after 3 days because of no insurance. I had been through WDs probably a dozen times before on my own, but never at anywhere near that kind of dose. Believe me when I say I understand that it truly is hell on earth, but you CAN make it through it.

The first thing you need to do is accept the reality of the situation, which is that if you did manage to score some somehow, even if it was a large amount, it will NEVER be enough. That number does not exist. No matter what you do, once you have an oxy habit like this, you will always end up in hell. That road always leads to the same place. Scoring more pills just delays the inevitable. Even if you had a lifetime supply, you'd just keep dosing heavier and heavier as you build up a tolerance until your body finally says enough is enough.

I'm not going to lie. This is going to be one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do, but quitting is the only way out. The sooner you accept that the better. Don't throw your life away by doing something extremely foolish and irresponsible, and for God's sake, have some consideration for other human beings who are in no way responsible for what you are going through.
 
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To the OP and everyone else posting, this thread just came into TDS from Other Drugs. We have very strict guidelines about triggering and flaming (in the form of name-calling or personal insults). I have gone in and edited out posts that contained either of those as well as posts that quoted the ones that I edited.

Let's start over. :) The advice in many of the edited posts was good, but the delivery was hostile and unhelpful. I've yet to meet another human being that stops to listen to someone calling them an asshole.

This is a harm reduction forum and TDS is specifically a forum to give people support for addiction, mental health issues and other hardships.

OP, as far as what you wrote in your post about feeling like you needed to rob something in order to get drugs, I trust you can see that you need to get help to get those drugs out of your system. As many people have pointed out your mental state right now is extremely fragile and you should not be anywhere near a gun for the safety of those around you and for your own safety.

I know it looks to you like your problem right now is just getting more pills but it is crucial for you to get help as soon as possible. Call a crisis line or go to the ER and get help.You can reverse this nightmare but it will take surrendering to getting off of opiates. There are so many people here that have done this or are currently doing this. Hopefully you can get some good support as you figure out how to go about starting this process yourself. There really is no other alternative at this point.
 
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Well- hopefully the OP is hanging in there and is managing to stay of trouble.
The sooner you finally come to terms with reality- that you have no options to get money/drugs and robbing someone is NOT an option- the better.
The fragile, frantic state that he was/is in, is unbearable.
Xanax could be wonderful, especially if you can manage to get so sleep.

There has to be a little more to this story though- OP said they were using 10-12 pills a day.
Now there is no way to get any money anymore- and no way to get pills.
I mean- I understand that shit happens in the blink of an eye.
But you usually don't go from funding $700/week to ZERO- without sensing a problem approaching somehow.

It makes me curious to know more.
 
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