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Mental Health I feel like im going fucking insane

Riffraff360

Riffraff360

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I over think about who i am and shit I got too do in my life it just makes me feel like im fucking insane from other people that can control thier thoughts and have a clear mind in their daily life
I feel like I can't hold myself together anymore and i'm just fucking collapsing and I can't do nothing about it.
 
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I over think about who i am and shit I got too do in my life it just makes me feel like im fucking insane from other people that can control thier thoughts and have a clear mind in their daily life
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first, how old are you? its definitely normal to be young and not know what to do with your life. its easier said than done but try not to compare yourself to others because no two people are the same. We all operate on different wave lengths so comparing yourself to others is generally just a disappointment. you also really do not know how other people think no way to read minds so how do you know they have clear minds and are not just faking it?
 
I'm 16 I mean they could be faking it but as far as my own problems it's easier said than done too fix this shit
 
have you been diagnosed with depression or anything? also what problems do you have specifically? feel free to pm me if you dont want to post here sometimes it helps to have an outside perspective on things especially if you dont have a therapist or what not which i would highly suggest. If i started talk therapy at an earlier age i think i would have sustained a certain amount of trust with health officials instead of self medicating.
 
Had OCD When I was 12, Had Depression when I was 14, Had SAD when I was 15, and got Anxiety now
 
I just feel like I finally have an idea of who I am but I need too constantly have the thought of who I am held tight in my mind and repeat the thoughts so I don't forget or loose myself and go back too the shit
Its just starting too ware me down now
 
I feel you. i have ocd also. at night its the worst. with intrusive thoughts that keep me awake until 6 am most nights. do you have hobbies? video games? anything at all to develop this sense of who you are and what makes you happy could help you rest easier. i know its hard to do things in the midst of revolving thoughts but if you can manage to break the cycle of the thoughts on repeat by doing other things it can help calm you down. lately i have felt very anxious also its part of the winter months and SAD. just hold on to the fact that things will change externally which may help change things internally.
 
:P I don't really feel about talking about this no more it's making me feel worse thanks anyways
 
Is this related to a trip or is this something you feel normally. "Feeling like I'm going fucking insane" sounds like just a typical bad drug experience. The "losing control of your mind" is another common feature of the same thing. If you are on things right now or have very recently, I can say that its the drugs from personal experience. Whenever the stuff wears off enough, just go to sleep get good long sleep. Then, do things for fun when you can to help you feel better. However, feeling like your "going mad" not connected to a drug experience is somewhat worrying, but its probably just anxiety. If you really seriously feel this way and it has nothing to do with being on drugs then maybe get checked out if its real bad. Generally though, people who "go nuts" do not know that they are going and wind up thinking their someone their not, act like a maniac, lash out at their friends, have multiple personalities, say crazy things, and usually just act completely nuts ALL THE TIME. It varies a lot and not everyone who is nuts doesn't know it, yells at people, has a split personality, etc. but usually they have some sort of very disturbing symptom and don't really think much of it
 
Nah its me normally not the drugs but just all this over thinking and not being able too chill out makes me go fucking insane and im feeling like im loosing control of all this shit :P
Idk I prolly need to on some meds or soemthing soon before I completly loose it
 
I'm almost 30 and i have no clue what i want to do with my life.
You'll find that once you stop attacking yourself, with yourself.
Then you can be your own best friend.

People who are in control of their thoughts and directions in life.
Generally have a Love for themselves which superceeds their love of others.

You gotta love yourself, before you love anyone, or anything else.
Family Included. Family can be a fucking trip without the drugs >.<
It's been a hard fact of life. You will learn, we all do.
 
Something that's really helped me with these feelings is mindfulness meditation. For 10 minutes a day or so sit down, close your eyes and focus only on your breathing. When you start to feel anxious about something do the same thing. It takes a lot of practice, but after a while the anxiety is much more manageable. Here is a thread about mindfulness in The Dark Side.

Take care and know that you're not alone. <3
 
Yeah, if you feel that bad it would probably be a good idea to talk to somebody. I doubt that you would "completely lose it" since you seem to just have real bad anxiety. The folks that "lose it" usually wouldn't be posting on the internet about how they worry they are "going crazy" because they would have no idea that they could be "going nuts"
 
Riffraff360 said:
I just feel like I finally have an idea of who I am but I need too constantly have the thought of who I am held tight in my mind and repeat the thoughts so I don't forget or loose myself and go back too the shit
Its just starting too ware me down now
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I wasn't going to comment on this because you said you didn't want to talk about it anymore, but looks like it's still going. Anyways, I would say what you're describing (especially in the bold) sounds like common OCD and OCD related anxiety. Especially the repeating of the thoughts. Of course I'm not a dr, and I normally wouldn't condone meds for someone as young as you, but from what you're describing you might want to look into getting treated. I have some OCD tendencies, but fortunately they're relatively minor. Just wish the rest of my other mental problems were lol.
 
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