I feel like I'm better than the world

Gormur

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I just wonder if any of you feel like me. I feel like I'm better than the world. I've experienced all I need to and today I had one of those moments like okay, what today? I seem to know everything now what? And there was nothing but silence. No answer from the other side, the dead whoever

I'm used to having a sign or at least becoming suddenly interested in something but there was absolutely nothing from the other end and now I feel empty like I could kill myself and know exactly why I did it. I don't have suicidal ideation but I feel like I know what would happen after I died, like I can picture other people grieving and such. I just wonder if any of you ever have the same feeling and what you do about it

I feel like death is the answer to everything because life is like a never-ending place where there are no answers, it's all been fulfilled
 
Have you ever been diagnosed as being schizoaffective? A friend of mine had similar thoughts for a period and that’s his issue. It’s a combo of bipolar and schizophrenia basically, kind of a hypomanic delusion, this sort of thought, in my opinion.
 
Have you ever been diagnosed as being schizoaffective? A friend of mine had similar thoughts for a period and that’s his issue. It’s a combo of bipolar and schizophrenia basically, kind of a hypomanic delusion, this sort of thought, in my opinion.
On the MMPI II it indicated that I had tendencies to be schizotypal, but I don't accept that as fact. It was also over a decade ago that I took that test and I tried different medications for it, which made me realize I didn't have any such condition

I just wonder why all the sudden I'm not getting inspiration. I usually get inspiration during the day, which is like dialog in my mind that tells me I'm here to learn something even if it seems meaningless. Hopefully getting older isn't all about sitting around and doing work without any sense of purpose. I mean work doesn't have to be meaningful, but to have something meaningful in life is important to me. Otherwise I start to forget things and start remembering things, which is actually another form of being depressed; when you remember things that aren't even real memories

Any ideas or perspectives on what I can do? Maybe it's a mental thing and I can get out of this
 
On the MMPI II it indicated that I had tendencies to be schizotypal, but I don't accept that as fact. It was also over a decade ago that I took that test and I tried different medications for it, which made me realize I didn't have any such condition

I just wonder why all the sudden I'm not getting inspiration. I usually get inspiration during the day, which is like dialog in my mind that tells me I'm here to learn something even if it seems meaningless. Hopefully getting older isn't all about sitting around and doing work without any sense of purpose. I mean work doesn't have to be meaningful, but to have something meaningful in life is important to me. Otherwise I start to forget things and start remembering things, which is actually another form of being depressed; when you remember things that aren't even real memories

Any ideas or perspectives on what I can do? Maybe it's a mental thing and I can get out of this
Looking into it that kind of dysphoria and false memories is linked with depression, yeah.


“Although there is an extensive literature on the effects of depression and dysphoria on memory accuracy, few studies have examined the effects of depression or dysphoria on false memory.”





PTSD as well. Do you suffer any PTSD symptoms?


“In clinical and court settings, it is imperative to know whether posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and depression may make people susceptible to false memories.“




It’s also linked to schizophrenia and bipolar, along with delusions of grandeur e.g. feeling “better than the world.



“ Confabulation can be defined as “statements or actions that reflect unintentional but obvious distortions of memory” (Gilboa et al., 2006). Two features characterize confabulations (Berlyne, 1972; Burgess and McNeil, 1999; Moscovitch and Melo, 1997). (1) They are false memories--either false in content, or false in the given context, and (2) the confabulator is unaware of the falsehood of these claims. Confabulation is a relatively rare form of memory disorder found in severe neuropsychiatric conditions like Korsakoff’s syndrome, traumatic brain injury, anterior communication artery aneurysm, Alzheimer’s disease, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and (in a milder form) among healthy people ”

“A delusion of grandeur is a false or unusual belief about one’s greatness. A person may believe, for instance, that they are famous, can end world wars, or that they are immortal.

Delusions of grandeur, also called grandiose delusions, often accompany other mental health symptoms, including other delusions. The may be related to mental or physical health conditions, including schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or some types of dementia.”





The last two links seem closer to what you’re experiencing than the first two. I really think
You should be screened again for schizophrenia, or schizoaffective in particular, and accept the diagnosis if you get one. It’s a tough, tough, thing to deal with. Denying the diagnoses and the delusion is one of the top problems with these things.
 
Thanks. I don't have those symptoms, like seeing patterns in things. I do know about it but this is more of anhedonia; a lack of feeling in general. I've had this since my early 20s. I'm not sure why but I think it's genetic because I hardly used any drugs until I was in my mid-20s

I hope this doesn't get worse as time goes on but drugs seem to be separated from the issue, in my case at least. I feel better this morning and I take lithium, which I hardly consider a drug at least at the dosage I'm on. It's kind of a placebo but it probably does something to level me out. I guess other than that I could try a mind exercise or something. I don't know, haha
 
On the MMPI II it indicated that I had tendencies to be schizotypal, but I don't accept that as fact. It was also over a decade ago that I took that test and I tried different medications for it, which made me realize I didn't have any such condition

I got hypomanic, paranoid, schizophrenic and another that i'm not proud of.

I've been diagnosed bipolar and i 100% agree there's no faking mania.

Anyway i too sometimes have delusions such as this but smoking a joint will humble me.
 
I just wonder if any of you feel like me. I feel like I'm better than the world. I've experienced all I need to and today I had one of those moments like okay, what today? I seem to know everything now what? And there was nothing but silence. No answer from the other side, the dead whoever

I'm used to having a sign or at least becoming suddenly interested in something but there was absolutely nothing from the other end and now I feel empty like I could kill myself and know exactly why I did it. I don't have suicidal ideation but I feel like I know what would happen after I died, like I can picture other people grieving and such. I just wonder if any of you ever have the same feeling and what you do about it

I feel like death is the answer to everything because life is like a never-ending place where there are no answers, it's all been fulfilled

I yearn for the peace and clarity of the grave on the daily, tis natural
 
Thanks. I don't have those symptoms, like seeing patterns in things. I do know about it but this is more of anhedonia; a lack of feeling in general. I've had this since my early 20s. I'm not sure why but I think it's genetic because I hardly used any drugs until I was in my mid-20s

I hope this doesn't get worse as time goes on but drugs seem to be separated from the issue, in my case at least. I feel better this morning and I take lithium, which I hardly consider a drug at least at the dosage I'm on. It's kind of a placebo but it probably does something to level me out. I guess other than that I could try a mind exercise or something. I don't know, haha
I take lithium as well, and it seems subtle at the time but realizing how much more extreme my state of mind could’ve been later, comparing my days, say, doing drugs and not taking my meds - the lithium is a lifesaver. I have some other heavy duty meds as well.

Exercise is a plus. It just feels better to be physically active anyway, body works better don’t tire so easily. I find it actually keeps my mind more active too on things outside the problems. It’s hard to do, but worth doing.
 
I take lithium as well, and it seems subtle at the time but realizing how much more extreme my state of mind could’ve been later, comparing my days, say, doing drugs and not taking my meds - the lithium is a lifesaver. I have some other heavy duty meds as well.

Exercise is a plus. It just feels better to be physically active anyway, body works better don’t tire so easily. I find it actually keeps my mind more active too on things outside the problems. It’s hard to do, but worth doing.
Cool. I'm pretty active. I like to walk places. Nothing extreme, just miles here and there. Probably 8 or 9 miles a week on average. I don't know if it does anything for me. I never got that endorphin rush from exercise but it does help me to think more clearly
 
Thanks. I don't have those symptoms, like seeing patterns in things. I do know about it but this is more of anhedonia; a lack of feeling in general. I've had this since my early 20s. I'm not sure why but I think it's genetic because I hardly used any drugs until I was in my mid-20s

I hope this doesn't get worse as time goes on but drugs seem to be separated from the issue, in my case at least. I feel better this morning and I take lithium, which I hardly consider a drug at least at the dosage I'm on. It's kind of a placebo but it probably does something to level me out. I guess other than that I could try a mind exercise or something. I don't know, haha

The Lithium, to your CNS, is actually very important. If you were to suffer from a pathological Lithium insufficiency, it would mean that you'd feel empty, as if in deep depression. An ex patient of mine suffered from such, and it took some time to figure it out. He was absolutely apathic on an emotional level. He didn't care about anything anymore, pure logic, but also no motivation. Once we started administering the Lithium it took a few months to get him back to normal, actually, but he DID get back to normal, so don't give up.

Give the Lithium some time, if it's a Lithium deficiency, you WILL feel better.
 
I just wonder if any of you feel like me. I feel like I'm better than the world. I've experienced all I need to and today I had one of those moments like okay, what today? I seem to know everything now what? And there was nothing but silence. No answer from the other side, the dead whoever

I'm used to having a sign or at least becoming suddenly interested in something but there was absolutely nothing from the other end and now I feel empty like I could kill myself and know exactly why I did it. I don't have suicidal ideation but I feel like I know what would happen after I died, like I can picture other people grieving and such. I just wonder if any of you ever have the same feeling and what you do about it

I feel like death is the answer to everything because life is like a never-ending place where there are no answers, it's all been fulfilled

I will reiterate my former feelings; I have many forms but most of my time is spent wallowing in perceived failure; I've only recently become jolly enough to breathe my sacred spirit and learned wordplay into the air;

But I recently realized my full potential; and listened when several dozen people told me I was the biggest brain in every room. I need to hold onto this prideful feeling' otherwise I will become jaded and downtrodden. I know it to be true; but I realize how much potential has been wasted through my self destructive methods; which are seemingly endless.

I have destroyed my body and wasted my perfect brain; Yelling TRUTH in the world is the only time I find peace. So I keep raving/ranting and pray people understand that I only have love for them;
 
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