I Failed

I was so fucking close.

On Sunday night I was 100% sure that I would get through it. I talked to my parents and was so happy they thought I was high.

Then I get a call from Randi. Why don't you come down and we'll celebrate your birthday in style. At first, I said no.Then 10 minutes later all my plans were in place.

Now, 3 days later I have gone through a quarter ounce and $1000. Then I get home and call and tell my parents that I'm alive at least (They know of my use). And oh by the way, you're sister doesn't want you around for Christmas dinner. That is the first time I cried. I can't believe I let it slide this far.

So I think this is "rock bottom". At least I hope so. I know I have no more chances.

 

Awww baby *hugs*

I can't say I know what you're going through. In fact I'm kind of shocked to read this... I can only send you my love. Please don't hesitate to talk to me.

The good thing about rock-bottom is that you can only go up from there.