I dunno why the hell im like this...

I'm on meds to help me mellow the fuck out, but i think they might have a depression side effect.

I miss all my friends like mad.

Vanessa lives in London, so unless I can find the cash to get out there with me and my 4yr old, I don't get to see her.

Terry and I are, on again off again, fight again, good again, nothing lasts longer than a couple days with us.

D, I never know what to make of you. I fell in love with you, I thought you were falling in love with me. We were having fun times hanging out. I love going out and and taking pictures with you of random things and of us. I also enjoy just hanging out at your place. Driving around in the truck, just sitting there with you. You are one of my bestfriends, you for some unknown reason help keep me calm like none of my medications can, and yet most days I feel like I am a burden to your life and you rather that I just get lost. Which probably is just silliness but I never know with you.

NO this isn't an emo night, I took my meds so no emo LOL just thinking of all my bestfriends and how it sucks that I rarely get to hang with them.

They are all totally fucking awesome but all have better things to do than hang with me.

damn, I feel loved. haha.

I wish i could have a good movie, popcorn and/or pizza and a certian friend to cuddle on the couch and enjoy a good movie.

Instead I am here alone watching Transformers.

yay! lol
 
Aww, at least watch a better movie. ;)

Everyone gets lonely; it gets easier to deal with the more it happens. Which is kind of depressing. Nothing wrong with emoing it up in blogs though, that's why we're here (among other reasons). Have you popped by TDS by any chance? Some great, very supportive people like to hang out there. Check it out.
 
meh i guess i'll be fine. its just the meds. I just started them and i was told they'd make me worse before better.

Im just bored and wish my friend.... my guy.....whatever he wants to be called today was here to hang. but he's busy with work. My BFF is in London, Ont. with 4 kids.....so I'm stuck going from emo to anger to emo to anger tonight obn my own.

My cable isnt being installed until friday which sucks even worse, i'm limited to local channels (some) until then, ans mostly crappy movies.

Blah. I hate being a loser being all emo but at least now I have an excuse for it, its not just me being emo, its my meds making me all bloody emo LOL

Ya I seen TDS, i pop in and out but dont really post.

thanks.
 
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