As some of you may have read... I tried my first dose of N,N-Dimethyltryptamine on monday night. Last night my guy was meant to be coming round with quite a substantial amount, so I spent the day taking it easy, eating well and abstaining from all other pleasures throughout the day.
I'm not a fan of combining substances, so I opted to keep a clear mind and respect this powerful drug. I had an empty house around 9 ish in the evening and said to him that it'd be cool to come over anytime after that, I waited until half 10 then sent him a text, no reply. At 1am ish I arrived at the conclusion that he had been held up somewhere and wasn't going to make it. I was actualy thinking of putting a post up last night saying that tonight I was meant to alter my mind more than it had ever been altered before, instead I ended up being straighter than I've ever been in my adult life, because of the abstaining from weed etc.
Now I have smoked on a pretty much daily basis for at least 10 years and never expirienced the following effects. As I said... about 1am I decided that he wouldn't show up and got out my weed. I loaded up my 5/8 socket bowl for my custom reverse bucket with some really nice bud. Took 1 massive hit and held it until virtualy no smoke was exhaled, then another, after that I repeated the whole process and sat on the couch.
I was watching some tv program when I started to feel very fucking strange. My heart was jumping out my chest, I couldn't catch a breath... It felt exactly like the initial onset of the DMT trip. I couldn't collect the million thoughts buzzing round my head or calm down enough to tell my body it was just weed. Each individual emotion I felt, manifested itself as a seperate personality, like I had a full conflicting argument going on inside my head. "shit! I've really fucking done it this time" I thought in that internal voice that we all use daily to question our motives, but then another voice would jump in say something else.
I totally lost a grip on reality, lost my mind and lost my sense of self. Both long term and short term memory were gone. Who am I? I couldn't even remember the weed or the buckets, hence the reason I didn't understand what was happening to me. I thought or someone thought that my brain chemistry had been changed forever and I would have to go through life with an ensemble of different personalitys. Scary stuff. 2 hours it took me to come down from that one, too afraid to sleep or even think. I'm 100% back to myself today, but jesus that was heavy duty haha.
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I'm not a fan of combining substances, so I opted to keep a clear mind and respect this powerful drug. I had an empty house around 9 ish in the evening and said to him that it'd be cool to come over anytime after that, I waited until half 10 then sent him a text, no reply. At 1am ish I arrived at the conclusion that he had been held up somewhere and wasn't going to make it. I was actualy thinking of putting a post up last night saying that tonight I was meant to alter my mind more than it had ever been altered before, instead I ended up being straighter than I've ever been in my adult life, because of the abstaining from weed etc.
Now I have smoked on a pretty much daily basis for at least 10 years and never expirienced the following effects. As I said... about 1am I decided that he wouldn't show up and got out my weed. I loaded up my 5/8 socket bowl for my custom reverse bucket with some really nice bud. Took 1 massive hit and held it until virtualy no smoke was exhaled, then another, after that I repeated the whole process and sat on the couch.
I was watching some tv program when I started to feel very fucking strange. My heart was jumping out my chest, I couldn't catch a breath... It felt exactly like the initial onset of the DMT trip. I couldn't collect the million thoughts buzzing round my head or calm down enough to tell my body it was just weed. Each individual emotion I felt, manifested itself as a seperate personality, like I had a full conflicting argument going on inside my head. "shit! I've really fucking done it this time" I thought in that internal voice that we all use daily to question our motives, but then another voice would jump in say something else.
I totally lost a grip on reality, lost my mind and lost my sense of self. Both long term and short term memory were gone. Who am I? I couldn't even remember the weed or the buckets, hence the reason I didn't understand what was happening to me. I thought or someone thought that my brain chemistry had been changed forever and I would have to go through life with an ensemble of different personalitys. Scary stuff. 2 hours it took me to come down from that one, too afraid to sleep or even think. I'm 100% back to myself today, but jesus that was heavy duty haha.
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