I don't want to kill myself but I don't want to live

[Maya]

Is it that obvious from my post that I'm young? Maya I already said I get some pleasure for a short time but it doesn't last, there is the initial spark and then complete disinterest. Why should I be generally thankful to be alive? If I live in complete misery 99% of the time why should I be thankful for that?

Because if you killed yourself right now how would you know that your life has gotten better in the future? Hell I am not gonna miss any good things that lies ahead!

 

[edgewise1]

Cliffy got an excellent point about a pet. I'm a cat person, and a dog person to I guess. But having a pet will definitely put a smile on your face in the worst of times. Pets can sense emotions and will give their love freely to you. Well dogs more so than cats because cats sometimes sit around not giving a shit about anybody, but they still funny.

Point being that if you have something like a pet that you have to take care of it gives you a reason to stay around.

Anyway, hope you are doing good today, and will be keeping you in my thoughts!

 

[falsifiedhypothesi]

I've got a couple cats and a dog. My dog just pisses me off, but I do enjoy my cats from time to time even though all they really do anymore is sleep and eat.

 

[Cliffy78]

That's why I thought I could deal with a cat, very low maintanence. I try not to go outside so walking a dog really wasn't an option for me. Going outside is dangerous for me in a bunch of different ways so I just stay in. That why they give me a check every month so I stay away from people and don't kill anyone lol.