I dont want this secret, please take it.

[mashead testing]

Hey its me again, yes me,
remember me I am your friend
I dont exist like the glass
but you cant see through me
I didnt know what knowing was
until I tried to trust
but knowing trust in my eyes
has ceased to exist, its easy
It never did,
it never did rain that night
it never did happen
I didnt expect it to
I didnt want it to happen
I didnt ask for it to happen
and I dont know how to tell anyone it did
I never thought it would be like this
You cant touch me
you cant get close to me
you always ask me why
and I cant say these words
I cant think these thoughts
I cant hold my mind
Ive come so close
but it wouldnt make a difference
Whats happened has happened
although im left with all the questions
you may even read this and think, yes
but no
I cant take this even though im full of hope
even though I try so hard
try so hard to make a difference
its all lost in the distance
You cant touch me
it doesnt feel right
you cant sit inside my mind
no one can, not even me
How does that make me feel,
I hurt and I get hurt
I dont try it just happens
its happening again and again
She cant take it, he hides it
she doesnt even know it exists
oblivious because we hide it from her
but they hurt so deep inside
What no one knows is this
but I cant tell you without pain,
the pain I felt since that day
thought I could hide it
But it wont go away,
told someone once
didnt really make a difference
it didnt go away
It still happened
and I dont even know why
do I read too much inside my mind
looking for loopholes
Looking for hurt,
but I didnt even ask for it
whether it was right or wrong
I will never know
You will never know and thats what hurts.

 

[plazma]

Nice work mashie!
-plaz out-

 

[Maui2k]

I Bob
you are my hero, wonderfull work.