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DCs_dreamer

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I walked slowly up the stairs
Tears streaming down my face
I didn't watch your car drive away
I didn't want to...
No
I couldn't

I open my front door
I dragged my feet along the carpet
I fall to the ground and cry out loud
I never do that

What just happened?
I am so confused
It was you that made me fall in love with you
I never said a word
I just listened to all the nice things you told me
Over and over again

I put my bag down and started to unpack
I had stayed at your house the night before
I put my dirty clothes in the washing machine
Hoping to wash any thoughts of you away with them

I went to the fridge
I poured myself a glass of wine
It had never tasted so good

I trusted you
I couldn't help but go over things you said
Did I mis-interpret them?
Was I a fool to believe you?
Did you lie?
What happened?

I can't handle this

Am I over reacting?
Is it easier for me to just let you go?
All you said was to slow things down
but I think I was too scared to keep giving you my all
So I don't want to see you right now

You gave me so much
More then I could have imagined
It is just too hard to put into words that will fit on this paper
You are amazing

I don't know what to do now

I lit a cigarette
The first of many
I started to feel better by the end of my wine

I went to my bedside draw
I tipped out the drugs I had in there
I felt a little better just by looking at them
It had been a long time since I opened that draw

I had you
and you were better then all the drugs in the world
I felt so good with you
I was high on your beautiful presence
I was motivated by your wonderful outlook on the world
I wanted to do all the things that I dreamed off before I found drugs
Many moons ago

I was getting angry now
I think at me more then you
But I would never admit that

I looked down at my desk
I had already had a few lines

See, there you go
I don't need you
I don't know why I thought I did
People usually mess up
Don't they?
They lie and cheat and will never really be there when you need them
Why did I think you were different?

I look around
1 glass of wine
A packet of cigarettes
and white powder in my hand...

Yeah,
I don't need you...!
 
First
Welcome to words =D

I love the feel of this, yes it is a bit on the sad side, but it strikes me We all deal with pain and moving on in different ways, this is great to read i followed it all the way through. Made me want to keep reading more though i don't think more would do it justice. :D
 
Thanks

Thanks for the welcome guys...!

I have been reading all your work for so long and never put anything on of mine, so I thought I would start.
 
Hey, I was reading this, and I started thinking about something in my life. So I started rewriting the poem to fit into a different situation. Anyway, I used your format, and just changed a few things around, and here's what i ended up with. Im not trying to say ive improved it, because ive probably just made it suck, it was perfect to begin with but I just wanted to post this so you could see your work..........??? used to mean something compleatly different. ?? I dont really know what im trying to say here. I dont know if thats how it works, because this really makes it a totally new poem. Sorry if you dont like it. I have writers block and cant come up with anything compleatly original right now, so im forced to spin off of others work.







I walked quickly down the hall
Tears streaming down my face
I got into my car and drove away
I didn't want to...
I said
but girl you know that isnt true

I open my front door
I dragged my feet just ho huming along
I crash onto my couch and sigh out loud
I'll never do that again, I promise

What just happened?
If you are so confused
It was you that fell in love with me
I never said a word to you
I just listened to all the nice things you told me
Over and over again

I went to the bedroom
I never felt like such shit
I poured myself a glass regret
I had never tasted anything so close to death

I told you it wasnt serious
I couldn't help but go over things I said
Did you mis-interpret them?
Was I a fool to believe you?
Did I lie?
What happened?

I can't handle this

Am I over reacting?
Is it better for you to just let me go?
All you said was to keep is real
but I think I was too scared to even try
So I don't want to see myself tonight

You gave me so much
More then I could ever repay
Listening to more than words can say
I dont deserve your tears now

I don't know what to do now

I lit a cigarette
Then i smoked one hundred packs
Its been 3 years, and I cant stop looking back

I had you
and you were better then me
I was too young to understand
I gave you my virginity
I was motivated by your care free mind
I saw myself as a father, and it made me so blind
Many moons ago

Getting calm now
I think I blame you more than me now
But I would never admit that

See, there you go
I never loved you
I don't know why I thought I did
People usually mess up
Don't they?
I lied and you cheated
Why did I think you were the one?

I look around
I was a seventeen year old fuckin drug addict
You were twenty and had a child
Now Im the age you were, and I hate you

Yeah,
Im not sorry anymore...!
 
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