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kaarmstr17

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Ok this is my first post here and I really need some opinions on what I should do.
Ok here it goes and I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum but iv been an opiate addict for 5 years, well I joined the methadone clinic 8 months ago and haven't used a pain pill since. The problem is I have extreme anxiety and the only time I feel like a normal person, the only time I socialize with my family, fiancé, friends, anyone is when I take a xanax. Now I in no way abuse them. If I take 1-2mg then I'm normal I socialize I leave the house I participate with family and friends. I can take a bar today and be fine for about three days, but once it leaves my system all I do is lay on the couch and feel like a zombie. Problem is I'm going to get kicked out of the clinic if I continue failing drug screens.
Just for more info iv been on a lot of different antidepressants and they just made me crazy.
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What do you guys think I should do? I can't keep living like this
 
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have you seriously explored cognitive behavioural therapy?

have you talked and listened to a psychologist for more than 3 sessions?

have you tried taking only cold showers for at least a week? (i know that question seems like a red herring, but please read my thread on the topic and if you feel my ideas on the subject, i can deeply suggest you try it for yourself ;)

how badly do you want to change? and what lengths are you willing to go to, in order for positive change to occur in your life?

in regards to your benzo habit, aim to decrease your usage over time, you dont have to become drug free in 1 day, it takes time to learn new habits after having some pretty deeply ingrained old ones

dont be too hard on yourself if you fail once in a while as well, you show a lot of initiative making this thread to ask for ideas :)

do this for yourself, so that you can once again have a positive effect on your family, friends and in the future, everyone ~

<hugs>
 
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You need to talk to a doctor, admit you are a benzodiazepine addict, explain you are on mmt and hope for a good doc.
 
omen_owen mk2 said:
You need to talk to a doctor, admit you are a benzodiazepine addict, explain you are on mmt and hope for a good doc.
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based on his OP, he doesnt appear to have a physical dependency yet, he is definitely on the way to strengthening a psychological dependency however, and that is worrying
 
If he's talking about feeling like a zombie when it leaves his system, it sounds like a physical dependence to me (although that wouldn't really tally with the half life of alprazolam).

Either way, here would be my course of action.

1. Speak to the clinic and explain the reason you have been using and failing tests.
2. Explain that you understand you cannot continue to do this.
3. Explain that you are doing your best to stop using.
4. Inform them that you have contacted a doctor to go through the proper channels to deal with the issue you are having.
5. Actually do what you said you would in step 4.
6. If you can stop using the xanax, then do it. Social anxiety might be difficult, but believe me it aint going to be shit compared to being kicked off a juice script.
 
kaarmstr17 said:
Ok this is my first post here and I really need some opinions on what I should do.
Ok here it goes and I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum but iv been an opiate addict for 5 years, well I joined the methadone clinic 8 months ago and haven't used a pain pill since. The problem is I have extreme anxiety and the only time I feel like a normal person, the only time I socialize with my family, fiancé, friends, anyone is when I take a xanax. Now I in no way abuse them. If I take 1-2mg then I'm normal I socialize I leave the house I participate with family and friends. I can take a bar today and be fine for about three days, but once it leaves my system all I do is lay on the couch and feel like a zombie. Problem is I'm going to get kicked out of the clinic if I continue failing drug screens.
Just for more info iv been on a lot of different antidepressants and they just made me crazy.
What

What do you guys think I should do? I can't keep living like this
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Have you seen the doctor n what has s/he said? Have you talked to your family about this?
You're welcome to PM me for a chat though I'll warn you I know nothing about xanax but will listen n advise where I can. I am sorry u are going through this.

Evey xxxx
 
kaarmstr17 said:
iv been on a lot of different antidepressants and they just made me crazy.
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There are different types of antidepressants: SSRI's didn't help me because I'm bipolar and it took many years for that diagnosis. Try seeing another psychiatrist because there are other drugs and therapies out there. You didn't say if you are prescribed Xanax or self-medicating. Have you a plan at the methadone clinic and have they discussed tapering at all?
 
Yea different antidepressants work for different people. I tried Mirtazapine but it made me angry n irritable so I went back to citralopram. Best to talk to doctor n it's about being patient, sorry. I'm here, as are others, if you need to talk.

Evey xxxx
 
I don't think more drugs is the answer here.

Maybe get clean for a while and see how it makes you feel.
 
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