mofo
i failed you coldly but you still remembered me
i stayed as a glimpse in your memory but not as a critical mistake
for years i though that the sweet friendship was entirely lost
more then unachievement, but a complete disaterous waste of precious time
jumps in the wrong direction and footsteps through the wrong door
you were the only one who visited when i was detained inside then locked away
enclosed by noisy plastic pillows, harsh fluroscent light and green lino floors
held in captivity by those who definitly knew better
trapped, alone, in a room with just simple me and dangerous thoughts
i never intended to walk out of that building, quiety i planned to never return
no one knew and i did not tell anyone they were taking, resucing me away
i needed to remove the diffiulty of 'goodbye' from leaving
but still you came and saw me, you saw purely what i never wanted to reveal
they asked you to help me, to get me to eat
but it was too late and too dark for food
and it broke me to see the pain in your eyes
to see you reach out when i was so gone
you saw that it was killing me
you knew i would die before letting it win
you saw the symptons
then you counted the pills, but still you begged me to go on
i couldnt bare the uncontrolable pain no more
nor the sound of a breaking heart in your voice
i hated that you couldnt understand
i hated feeling i had no choice
after you went they put me to a bed
i was too distressed for them to tolerate
i couldnt dream, i wouldnt pray, i should have not let you in
that night i ate, the bitter tears tasted like your perfume
some nights i curse you ever came and tried to save
i wish you could see me suffer
how did you ever know how to find me
you were worth living to see again
but was i really worth saving
something tells me to let it go
your echo that pulls me awake
i failed you coldly but you still remembered me
i stayed as a glimpse in your memory but not as a critical mistake
for years i though that the sweet friendship was entirely lost
more then unachievement, but a complete disaterous waste of precious time
jumps in the wrong direction and footsteps through the wrong door
you were the only one who visited when i was detained inside then locked away
enclosed by noisy plastic pillows, harsh fluroscent light and green lino floors
held in captivity by those who definitly knew better
trapped, alone, in a room with just simple me and dangerous thoughts
i never intended to walk out of that building, quiety i planned to never return
no one knew and i did not tell anyone they were taking, resucing me away
i needed to remove the diffiulty of 'goodbye' from leaving
but still you came and saw me, you saw purely what i never wanted to reveal
they asked you to help me, to get me to eat
but it was too late and too dark for food
and it broke me to see the pain in your eyes
to see you reach out when i was so gone
you saw that it was killing me
you knew i would die before letting it win
you saw the symptons
then you counted the pills, but still you begged me to go on
i couldnt bare the uncontrolable pain no more
nor the sound of a breaking heart in your voice
i hated that you couldnt understand
i hated feeling i had no choice
after you went they put me to a bed
i was too distressed for them to tolerate
i couldnt dream, i wouldnt pray, i should have not let you in
that night i ate, the bitter tears tasted like your perfume
some nights i curse you ever came and tried to save
i wish you could see me suffer
how did you ever know how to find me
you were worth living to see again
but was i really worth saving
something tells me to let it go
your echo that pulls me awake
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