I have ptsd, anxiety and depression which is being aggregated by my health and I don’t know the cause. With covid 19 it means that appointments for mental health have been put on hold and I understand why but I don’t understand what my health issues are and what’s causing them, an allergy to food, an allergy to codeine? A allergy to weed or the cbs in it? All I know is I have severe Diarrhea and tummy pains, Loperamide stops it for a day or two but instead of the runs I still go a lot and when I come off the Loperamide it returns. I’ve tried a dairy free diet, I’ve tried stopping my drugs, I’ve tried and was tested for gluten allergies, I’ve been tried on worming tablets by my doctor and now as a last desperate attempt to solve things he has ordered blood tests, but it’s been doing on since my mum passed away, getting worse and worse as tine goes on and I am also being tested for anaemia as I’ve not got much energy.
My quality of life isn’t great, I’m not losing weight but I am not getting much exercise either because it exhausts me and I just think to myself that I can’t see a way forwards and maybe this is good as my life is going to get, I used to get high to get relief from my problems but the last time I did that I felt worse for two days, I also feel worse if I have cbd oil. I was rarely ill when I was younger, I lived in a safe environment, eat healthy home cooking, I only ever smoked weed once in a while and it helped and live was good. sure I had arthritis and eczema but they didn’t not get me down like this.
I did go through 6 stressful years and abuse which caused my ptsd and life went downhill from there, I even lost teeth and during the winters I can barely walk since we moved somewhere cold and damp (arthritis)
part of me is worried that the still issues could be something serious or even cancer. Part of my wishes I could have a great year, stay high and then fade away peacefully in my sleep one night. my blood tests results should come back quickly and if it doesn’t show up anything then I will feel more distressed
because they can’t get to the bottom of what’s doing this. It’s what happened to my partner no one could figure out what was wrong until she collapsed and nearly died from Anaemia and they still have found the cause.
My quality of life isn’t great, I’m not losing weight but I am not getting much exercise either because it exhausts me and I just think to myself that I can’t see a way forwards and maybe this is good as my life is going to get, I used to get high to get relief from my problems but the last time I did that I felt worse for two days, I also feel worse if I have cbd oil. I was rarely ill when I was younger, I lived in a safe environment, eat healthy home cooking, I only ever smoked weed once in a while and it helped and live was good. sure I had arthritis and eczema but they didn’t not get me down like this.
I did go through 6 stressful years and abuse which caused my ptsd and life went downhill from there, I even lost teeth and during the winters I can barely walk since we moved somewhere cold and damp (arthritis)
part of me is worried that the still issues could be something serious or even cancer. Part of my wishes I could have a great year, stay high and then fade away peacefully in my sleep one night. my blood tests results should come back quickly and if it doesn’t show up anything then I will feel more distressed
because they can’t get to the bottom of what’s doing this. It’s what happened to my partner no one could figure out what was wrong until she collapsed and nearly died from Anaemia and they still have found the cause.
