Hi, my name is Poe and I am a new member to BL but have been coming to this sight for idk how long for information on HR and to help myself know that I'm not alone. Please don't delete the thread I just made the title so maybe more people would read in hopes of maybe people that have similar feelings in similar situations may reach out to support/get support from myself. I take pain medicine for a chronic disease and I'm currently taking Dilaudid 8mg and I just switched to Fentanyl patches from methadone and the switch is almost as bad as withdrawing. I'm prescribed everything I 'take'. I also use Marijuana for nausea, minor pain, and it helps me eat as my disease makes it nearly impossible. I have come here to this site for many issues regarding my use of these and other pain meds. Yes I have abused my medication before and honestly idk how to distinguish between using my meds for pain and using them because it feels good to feel good sometimes as I'm in a lot of pain without them and its nice to actually feel 'good'. I have barely any real friends who will actually stick with me, and my mom and sisters and grandparents are really the only support I have and I feel terrible talking to them about my issues because they do so much for me already. I am in therapy and honestly I think I scare the poor lady. Would love to help anyone and have a big heart and I love to listen and give feedback, but I also really need some type of support for this area of my life. Thank you for reading and I hope to speak with anyone soon.
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