so, a buddy of mine called today and started the conversation w/ - "listen dude, I know you are doing great, and I hate to put you in this situation.... but". well, we all know what was said after. yes, he wanted me to grab him a G so he could use. he missed his methadone appointment today since he has to go daily and wanted "something" to get him off E.
at first I thought, "hmmm, maybe I could split a half G w/ him" but I ended up just saying NO! I have not spoken w/ my "guy" in months and I really dont want to give the dude I call. yes, I have been great and have not shot any dope in 4-5 months (around there) and have no urge/feeling to use again; these Suboone (8MG/day/morning only) and 1600MG/GABA/morning only. I seriously feel GREAT everyday w/ no urge, no nothing, so I am NOT going to pick it at risk. I honestly did feel I could do it for him w/ no problem but why risk it, ya know!? and I dont blame the kid for asking because I would have done the same thing while using, so NO BIG DEAL!
I was just amazed that I didnt use that as an excuse to TRY something. I am happy, truly happy, and KNOW that drugs have ruined my life and put me in a SHIT situation, so DO NOT WANT TO GO THERE! and will NEVER GO BACK! I am OVER THAT; I am fucking 33yrs old, man. Just turned 33 last week and I am truly HAPPY w/ my life. my girlfriend plays a HUGE PART in this and I would NOT have this girl if I was using, so I am even more willing to stay off drugs; even if its just for her alone, she is well worth it. I do NOT want to fuck up another GOOD thing. then again, drugs didnt fuck up my past GF's or anything like that; those girls were NOT FOR ME! this girl is different in so many ways, and also the most beautiful girl I've ever been w/, so I will NE.
OK, thats it. I am HAPPY and I was able to say NO and stay away; I am just HAPPY w/ myself and how I played that... a pat on the back for me!
Thankssssssssss!
at first I thought, "hmmm, maybe I could split a half G w/ him" but I ended up just saying NO! I have not spoken w/ my "guy" in months and I really dont want to give the dude I call. yes, I have been great and have not shot any dope in 4-5 months (around there) and have no urge/feeling to use again; these Suboone (8MG/day/morning only) and 1600MG/GABA/morning only. I seriously feel GREAT everyday w/ no urge, no nothing, so I am NOT going to pick it at risk. I honestly did feel I could do it for him w/ no problem but why risk it, ya know!? and I dont blame the kid for asking because I would have done the same thing while using, so NO BIG DEAL!
I was just amazed that I didnt use that as an excuse to TRY something. I am happy, truly happy, and KNOW that drugs have ruined my life and put me in a SHIT situation, so DO NOT WANT TO GO THERE! and will NEVER GO BACK! I am OVER THAT; I am fucking 33yrs old, man. Just turned 33 last week and I am truly HAPPY w/ my life. my girlfriend plays a HUGE PART in this and I would NOT have this girl if I was using, so I am even more willing to stay off drugs; even if its just for her alone, she is well worth it. I do NOT want to fuck up another GOOD thing. then again, drugs didnt fuck up my past GF's or anything like that; those girls were NOT FOR ME! this girl is different in so many ways, and also the most beautiful girl I've ever been w/, so I will NE.
OK, thats it. I am HAPPY and I was able to say NO and stay away; I am just HAPPY w/ myself and how I played that... a pat on the back for me!
Thankssssssssss!
