I've been carrying around with me all the final texts between me and my ex. It's been like a year now...I just now hit *delete all*... that's it...they're gone... If it was meant to be, our paths will cross again.
who the fuck knows
Incidentally I went back to a cave the other night we (ex) had sex in.... it wasn't good sex, spur of the moment lets just do it to say we did it kinda thing, smelly place lol... but there was a huge hole in the back of the chamber that looked like it went up. Water trickled down from above. Like a good 20 feet up. I wondered if there was a cave system when we visited it years ago.. I went back a few nights ago and found out for myself. Some people had propped a tree trunk and some sticks so you could climb up to the hole... It was at 'Devil's Hole Park' in Niagara falls NY.. I think that might actually be 'the' devil's hole... snapped a good shot with a bat flying down.. could have died..made it up though... and the cave kept going up.. so there's more to explore. Had to turn back, but I made it up to the first tier...I wanted to climb higher, I could have free climbed to the next section, it was like a semi-circle stair case with a trickle of water...
I can't believe I finally deleted it...all those txts from the break up were so emotionally charged.. I wanted it to work so bad with Sabrina, I thought I'd spend my life with her. The circumstances were just so fucked up... I don't know.. fuck it, clean slate, let's see what the future holds. Let's go climb up into another hole (interpret that as you wish)
I hope the act of wiping all that stuff off my phone helps.. so much love, then so much hate, back and forth.....*booom*
off to go rearrange the living space
*edit*
oh fuck me running, of course I had to accidentally lock one text "Thanku for being there"... after I fucking ran away because I was afraid of how crazy she was.. I wanted to take care of her but she was gonna kill me or herself... why the fuck am I even writtting thing shit
...whatever....this is for this best...might be able to move on or some crap like that
who the fuck knows
Incidentally I went back to a cave the other night we (ex) had sex in.... it wasn't good sex, spur of the moment lets just do it to say we did it kinda thing, smelly place lol... but there was a huge hole in the back of the chamber that looked like it went up. Water trickled down from above. Like a good 20 feet up. I wondered if there was a cave system when we visited it years ago.. I went back a few nights ago and found out for myself. Some people had propped a tree trunk and some sticks so you could climb up to the hole... It was at 'Devil's Hole Park' in Niagara falls NY.. I think that might actually be 'the' devil's hole... snapped a good shot with a bat flying down.. could have died..made it up though... and the cave kept going up.. so there's more to explore. Had to turn back, but I made it up to the first tier...I wanted to climb higher, I could have free climbed to the next section, it was like a semi-circle stair case with a trickle of water...
I can't believe I finally deleted it...all those txts from the break up were so emotionally charged.. I wanted it to work so bad with Sabrina, I thought I'd spend my life with her. The circumstances were just so fucked up... I don't know.. fuck it, clean slate, let's see what the future holds. Let's go climb up into another hole (interpret that as you wish)
I hope the act of wiping all that stuff off my phone helps.. so much love, then so much hate, back and forth.....*booom*
off to go rearrange the living space
*edit*
oh fuck me running, of course I had to accidentally lock one text "Thanku for being there"... after I fucking ran away because I was afraid of how crazy she was.. I wanted to take care of her but she was gonna kill me or herself... why the fuck am I even writtting thing shit
...whatever....this is for this best...might be able to move on or some crap like that