So here's the thing.First of i apologize for my english i will try to write it as simple as possible.
I live in a country in Europe named Cyprus (basicly a small island) you may even never heard of .I'm 28 years old i live
alone since my mother died 2 year's ago the only ones i have is my smaller brother and my grandmother they live together
in another house not far from mine.I had a very good Job a nice car a beautyful girlfriend a happy life going to GYM everyday
friends etc .I just always needed to be addicted to something dont get this wrong it hasnt to be specificly
drug addicion the Gym is an addiction to me my Girlfriend is an addiction bike is an addiction playing basket is addiction
this just how my circle of life is makes me feel alive
I never had big problem with drugs i tryed (weed Xtc LSD Coke etc) over the years only coke give me abit of problem but i
was always able to break free of those addictions all this untill 10 months ago i found in internet ''the SnB meth''
(which never hear and not have knowledge what this substunce is ) i though im clean from drugs 5 years lets give this it a try!!
what a fucking curious idiot i was ? Also In my country Pseudoephedrine AND EVERY SINGLE INGRIDIENT is NON controlled all
over the counter buy as much as you like. in 1 fucking week i was cooking it out from nowhere i must say it blowed my mind that i get so high from something i created home .In 3 months i was able to cook it with 3 diffrent reduction Methods Hypo/birch/RXN plenty of time and ingridients i was using meth and reading even for days i become clandestine chemist whats wrong with me i FUCKING HATED CHEMISTRY Im still thinking about the site i found and make this disaster possible (most of you must heard of it but i don't wan't to name it but is a place where ''all bees give the honey'') all of the forum guys there must be granduated chemists who turned to crime i cannot explain it otherwise even if you do a random cook mistake you will found a Topic about what and how to fix it with such accurancy.
Now 10 months later im IV user sitting in my empty house without electricity(just what's left in my Evil Laptop) without
car i sell it while i was High (yes stupid things happends while high) also girlfriend broke up i was fired from Job stoped
The GYM half house is burned from ''Cooking lessions'' in this country they dont even have a Meth DETOX clinic 80% people here
simply don't know this substunce existance!This is my 11th time i relapse (35 hours past from my last dosage Yeah i know i
will not let this slip become relapse i will keep moving forward and im already killing the high with effective dosage of
benzos to prevent further damage) but sometimes im feeling really heavy on heart and alone to this even if i told this story
to family they wont belive me is so extreme for this country stereotypes.They already think i lose my mind and become mad
or i become schizophrenic( i dont blame them they don't know a drug can affect one in such point) .
I spent thousands of hours reading your forums not only yours every single article about Quiting meth and learning ways and
methods to stay clean but also from personal expiriance with past cocaine addiction this is very difficult cocaine addiction
is walk in the park compair to this this so ironic and serious at the same time i create a substance which killing me slowly
in pain and agony and can't say a word about it , every binge takes me a step away from life and what i loved like im traped
in an illusion in some kind of fake reality
I know i must find the strength to stop this madness im just getting tired of relapse just need to speak this to someone
even by writing it down make me feel better and i know here are people with more expiriance and clean mind so can get
some advice im trapped here with no job and no car nobody to talk im more easy to relapse
Also please don't try to find track IP or anything i just come here for help and only I never intent to pass this
curse to anyone.My House is shiny clean Laws of my country could not affect me with household
chemicals or sudafed also cops dosnt know what to look for and will took them 1 week to get papers so they will be able to
check my house (yes a little meth paranoia while typing
) ( please forgive me if i insult you with this i just lost too much in a blink of an eye )
I live in a country in Europe named Cyprus (basicly a small island) you may even never heard of .I'm 28 years old i live
alone since my mother died 2 year's ago the only ones i have is my smaller brother and my grandmother they live together
in another house not far from mine.I had a very good Job a nice car a beautyful girlfriend a happy life going to GYM everyday
friends etc .I just always needed to be addicted to something dont get this wrong it hasnt to be specificly
drug addicion the Gym is an addiction to me my Girlfriend is an addiction bike is an addiction playing basket is addiction
this just how my circle of life is makes me feel alive
I never had big problem with drugs i tryed (weed Xtc LSD Coke etc) over the years only coke give me abit of problem but i
was always able to break free of those addictions all this untill 10 months ago i found in internet ''the SnB meth''
(which never hear and not have knowledge what this substunce is ) i though im clean from drugs 5 years lets give this it a try!!
what a fucking curious idiot i was ? Also In my country Pseudoephedrine AND EVERY SINGLE INGRIDIENT is NON controlled all
over the counter buy as much as you like. in 1 fucking week i was cooking it out from nowhere i must say it blowed my mind that i get so high from something i created home .In 3 months i was able to cook it with 3 diffrent reduction Methods Hypo/birch/RXN plenty of time and ingridients i was using meth and reading even for days i become clandestine chemist whats wrong with me i FUCKING HATED CHEMISTRY Im still thinking about the site i found and make this disaster possible (most of you must heard of it but i don't wan't to name it but is a place where ''all bees give the honey'') all of the forum guys there must be granduated chemists who turned to crime i cannot explain it otherwise even if you do a random cook mistake you will found a Topic about what and how to fix it with such accurancy.
Now 10 months later im IV user sitting in my empty house without electricity(just what's left in my Evil Laptop) without
car i sell it while i was High (yes stupid things happends while high) also girlfriend broke up i was fired from Job stoped
The GYM half house is burned from ''Cooking lessions'' in this country they dont even have a Meth DETOX clinic 80% people here
simply don't know this substunce existance!This is my 11th time i relapse (35 hours past from my last dosage Yeah i know i
will not let this slip become relapse i will keep moving forward and im already killing the high with effective dosage of
benzos to prevent further damage) but sometimes im feeling really heavy on heart and alone to this even if i told this story
to family they wont belive me is so extreme for this country stereotypes.They already think i lose my mind and become mad
or i become schizophrenic( i dont blame them they don't know a drug can affect one in such point) .
I spent thousands of hours reading your forums not only yours every single article about Quiting meth and learning ways and
methods to stay clean but also from personal expiriance with past cocaine addiction this is very difficult cocaine addiction
is walk in the park compair to this this so ironic and serious at the same time i create a substance which killing me slowly
in pain and agony and can't say a word about it , every binge takes me a step away from life and what i loved like im traped
in an illusion in some kind of fake reality
I know i must find the strength to stop this madness im just getting tired of relapse just need to speak this to someone
even by writing it down make me feel better and i know here are people with more expiriance and clean mind so can get
some advice im trapped here with no job and no car nobody to talk im more easy to relapse
Also please don't try to find track IP or anything i just come here for help and only I never intent to pass this
curse to anyone.My House is shiny clean Laws of my country could not affect me with household
chemicals or sudafed also cops dosnt know what to look for and will took them 1 week to get papers so they will be able to
check my house (yes a little meth paranoia while typing
) ( please forgive me if i insult you with this i just lost too much in a blink of an eye )
