D_*Lit'e'
Bluelighter
i always thought he was perfect
with his cool ideals and way about him
i gave him something
i can never get it back
my parents didnt even like him
but people thought we were a cute couple
me and my boyfriend
i changed a lot to be with him
at first i was fun, but after a while,
i didnt want to seem stupid,
so i shut up
we did drugs a lot
it seemed like we'd have a bad week,
and then the weekend e would fix it,
but only for a while
i so looked foward to any sign he liked me
that he really did like me
everyone told me he did
how could he not?? they said
you're above him
but i knew this wasn't true
i think i loved him
but it seemed so unrequited
people said that it was because he didn't know
didn't know anything
anything about being a boyfriend
so i let that slip
and that
and oh that too
i didn't care,
as long as i had him.
and that girl
that stupid sophomore
i was at home that night
my friends saw
he denied it
nothing big, but he acted more like he was with her then he did with me
i don't get it
whats so different
all i ever wanted was some acknowledgement
but i never got it
do you know how upset you made me
i cried at my senior prom because of you
i cried a lot because of you
and after all of this i still couldn't break up with you
you wouldn't break up with me
you couldn't hurt me you said
well guess what??
its too late for that, just do it
break up with me, i said
but you wouldn't
and i wouldn't break up with you
this was not me
when would i make someone break up with me because i couldn't
i used to be strong
i would have never been so weak
i finally did it and left with out looking behind me
stupid me, i came right back crying
and you didn't care
i was so upset
and do you remember a month later
when i ended up at your house
you lied to me
to use me again
to take what you had already taken before
but i didn't
i still remember the good times we had
you laughing at me
our latenight phone talks
remember going to the park and playing on swings
remember when i took you to your first rave??
i remember before we were us
when we could joke and play like friends
i miss that
i miss you
i miss being us
but i know i can never get that back
and im angry that i even want that back
im angry because i thought that i was different
but most of all
im angry because you dont care
and that hurts more than anything
with his cool ideals and way about him
i gave him something
i can never get it back
my parents didnt even like him
but people thought we were a cute couple
me and my boyfriend
i changed a lot to be with him
at first i was fun, but after a while,
i didnt want to seem stupid,
so i shut up
we did drugs a lot
it seemed like we'd have a bad week,
and then the weekend e would fix it,
but only for a while
i so looked foward to any sign he liked me
that he really did like me
everyone told me he did
how could he not?? they said
you're above him
but i knew this wasn't true
i think i loved him
but it seemed so unrequited
people said that it was because he didn't know
didn't know anything
anything about being a boyfriend
so i let that slip
and that
and oh that too
i didn't care,
as long as i had him.
and that girl
that stupid sophomore
i was at home that night
my friends saw
he denied it
nothing big, but he acted more like he was with her then he did with me
i don't get it
whats so different
all i ever wanted was some acknowledgement
but i never got it
do you know how upset you made me
i cried at my senior prom because of you
i cried a lot because of you
and after all of this i still couldn't break up with you
you wouldn't break up with me
you couldn't hurt me you said
well guess what??
its too late for that, just do it
break up with me, i said
but you wouldn't
and i wouldn't break up with you
this was not me
when would i make someone break up with me because i couldn't
i used to be strong
i would have never been so weak
i finally did it and left with out looking behind me
stupid me, i came right back crying
and you didn't care
i was so upset
and do you remember a month later
when i ended up at your house
you lied to me
to use me again
to take what you had already taken before
but i didn't
i still remember the good times we had
you laughing at me
our latenight phone talks
remember going to the park and playing on swings
remember when i took you to your first rave??
i remember before we were us
when we could joke and play like friends
i miss that
i miss you
i miss being us
but i know i can never get that back
and im angry that i even want that back
im angry because i thought that i was different
but most of all
im angry because you dont care
and that hurts more than anything
