I have been so excited for my family vacation (which I leave for on Tuesday).
I am seeing my parents for the first time in four years and my brother who I haven't seen in almost a year-My brother has been in Iraq the last nine months.I have had alot of anxiety over it......
He has sent me emails as often as he can and has told me about his life there.
Though (and I hear often) it is not as crazy over there as it once was- my brother is on recon missions that put him in harms way often....
He has written about alot of really hard things to know,for me, and I can't imagine living it......
His living conditions are appalling-
Anyway- I was very happy when he arrived back on US soil for his 2 week leave, 2 days ago.
His girlfriend called today and said they were out at some friends of hers house and drinking.....
I guess my brother was fine for a while and then she said he just lost it.
She said he started balling his eyes out in front of everyone (my brother VERY VERY RARELY cries)- then he tries to fight people and pushes his girlfriend and takes off down the road......
I guess he was trying to fight poles,shit in someones yard and was suicidal.
He feels like he is suffocating sometimes, thinks he needs to be watching everywhere for attacks or bombs-
I guess he was in a pretty bad situation a few weeks ago (and I can't imagine how bad b/c he has told me some pretty frightening stuff before this incident in which he just says was 'really really bad') and they required he to see a Psych in Iraq-
The psych I guess didn't think anything was wrong then and told him he needed to talk about how he is feeling.
I am really worried about how to move forward b/c when I called he was asleep but we talked a few minutes and he said he didn't want to see another psych (I suggested when we all get together he go onto a base and see someone).......
I know he is bothered by being in Iraq b/c he thinks the war was started for shit. But he feels it is his 'duty' and we can't just pull out......
Oh I am nervous.
I am seeing my parents for the first time in four years and my brother who I haven't seen in almost a year-My brother has been in Iraq the last nine months.I have had alot of anxiety over it......
He has sent me emails as often as he can and has told me about his life there.
Though (and I hear often) it is not as crazy over there as it once was- my brother is on recon missions that put him in harms way often....
He has written about alot of really hard things to know,for me, and I can't imagine living it......
His living conditions are appalling-
Anyway- I was very happy when he arrived back on US soil for his 2 week leave, 2 days ago.
His girlfriend called today and said they were out at some friends of hers house and drinking.....
I guess my brother was fine for a while and then she said he just lost it.
She said he started balling his eyes out in front of everyone (my brother VERY VERY RARELY cries)- then he tries to fight people and pushes his girlfriend and takes off down the road......
I guess he was trying to fight poles,shit in someones yard and was suicidal.
He feels like he is suffocating sometimes, thinks he needs to be watching everywhere for attacks or bombs-
I guess he was in a pretty bad situation a few weeks ago (and I can't imagine how bad b/c he has told me some pretty frightening stuff before this incident in which he just says was 'really really bad') and they required he to see a Psych in Iraq-
The psych I guess didn't think anything was wrong then and told him he needed to talk about how he is feeling.
I am really worried about how to move forward b/c when I called he was asleep but we talked a few minutes and he said he didn't want to see another psych (I suggested when we all get together he go onto a base and see someone).......
I know he is bothered by being in Iraq b/c he thinks the war was started for shit. But he feels it is his 'duty' and we can't just pull out......
Oh I am nervous.