I can't succeed

This whole being awake for more than 24 hours, doing amphetamines, cramming for exams and papers due, getting paranoid, cutting myself, and feeling like I'm just too stupid for school... it gets old. I don't think I can do college anymore. I think I'm going to have to drop out or, well, I don't know what I'm going to do. I might not be too stupid but the amount of work is too much, too soon. I mean I don't know how other people do it, I don't know how medical school students do it. I'm not that fast or that brilliant in the academic sense. I'm not retarded, I am just kind of slow, enough to make me fail in this system. I just can't stay positive about this. I'm just going to have to disappoint my whole family and all my friends who want me to succeed. But maybe I just can't succeed!

 

Perhaps you can try a tutor or take a study techniques class. I took one in college and learned probably more than I have from any other class in that class heh.