kanyeknievel
Bluelighter
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- Jul 12, 2010
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Hey everyone,
So.. I'll start off by saying, I haven't done MDMA in over a year or more and I finally got some today from a new person who is a trust worthy and good source, and I got 2 capsules that had .2 in each for me and a friend. He does more psychadelic than I do, I am not a psychadelic person.. but I used to do E pills all the time.
Anyways, I got the two capsules and at first it seemed a bit weird.. every time I got molly before this it was moonrock, like crystally and rocky and yellowish, and this time it was basically white powder, and i didn't say anything cause it's a new person (co-worker) and I trust him and I was sure it was fine. I just never got white powder before.
So I have my friend come over, I ask him if he ever had MDMA like this before. He said yes and I am like, okay good. So we take it out of the capsules and dip it throughout the next hour-two and it is VERYYYY bitter and lingers a LOT. Which I expected, just not to linger. But I felt good, very creepy, but it never HIT ME.. I thought it was but it never did.. it just got to a point where i had a bit of a head rush, some bit of talkativeness, some deep thinking, some emotion... but not peaking..
It was as if I got halfway up the mountain and it just stopped, and I never got to the I LOVE YOU! THIS IS AMAZING! THIS IS THE BEST! EVERYTHINGS PERFECT! SO TALKATIVE! SO EMOTIONAL! .. never got close to that.. where you lose inhibitions. I just got half-way there and stopped. Like i was climbing up the mountain, and I got too tired or scared to make it to the top (analogy) and I stopped there and never made it to the peak... and thats as high as it got and thats when I said to my friend I don't know if I want to keep going because of a few reasons.
And since about 2 years ago after I got depersonalization, and I tried taking MDMA a handful of times.. I have never been able to get back to that peak, get back to that place I use to be able to always easily get to.. and I don't know why... I want to just experience it one more time, and I don't get it. Every single time I have tried to do it again, this same exact thing happens. I get to the same exact place and it just stops. I don't go any furthur, my inhibitions don't go away and ... I just stop moving up... I don't understand what it is.
I don't believe at all that this was bad or bunk mdma, i dont think it was piperzine, it was powder white mdma, it was very bitter. My friend, i just asked, he said it was def mdma. I believe him, and I believe it was, I just wanted to make sure it was mdma before i posted this and it might not be mdma and thats why this happened.
Has this happened to anyone else? Has anyone else rolled so many times, or many times and then just , they couldn't get back to that place anymore? They couldn't peak again and they just couldn't roll again like I am experencing? I don't understand what it is... my friend said I should have just taken more and that is why, we just hadn't taken enough and I was going to but then tthe vibe and feeling was lost and it was too late, it was already 1am and i didn't want to do it all now and be up till 6am rolling. So maybe I didnt do enough? Or is it I'm done in my life with psychoactives?
I don't know, it's just very strange, I just want to experience euphoria and the love again like that. I am going to take the rest i have, .1 or > .1 all in one shot soon and if the same thing happens.. ill know my time has passed for ecstasy.
It is just so weird, I don't get it, just because I have taken atleast 100-200 or more rolls within a year before, and they were all amazing, stars almost all the time.
So.. I'll start off by saying, I haven't done MDMA in over a year or more and I finally got some today from a new person who is a trust worthy and good source, and I got 2 capsules that had .2 in each for me and a friend. He does more psychadelic than I do, I am not a psychadelic person.. but I used to do E pills all the time.
Anyways, I got the two capsules and at first it seemed a bit weird.. every time I got molly before this it was moonrock, like crystally and rocky and yellowish, and this time it was basically white powder, and i didn't say anything cause it's a new person (co-worker) and I trust him and I was sure it was fine. I just never got white powder before.
So I have my friend come over, I ask him if he ever had MDMA like this before. He said yes and I am like, okay good. So we take it out of the capsules and dip it throughout the next hour-two and it is VERYYYY bitter and lingers a LOT. Which I expected, just not to linger. But I felt good, very creepy, but it never HIT ME.. I thought it was but it never did.. it just got to a point where i had a bit of a head rush, some bit of talkativeness, some deep thinking, some emotion... but not peaking..
It was as if I got halfway up the mountain and it just stopped, and I never got to the I LOVE YOU! THIS IS AMAZING! THIS IS THE BEST! EVERYTHINGS PERFECT! SO TALKATIVE! SO EMOTIONAL! .. never got close to that.. where you lose inhibitions. I just got half-way there and stopped. Like i was climbing up the mountain, and I got too tired or scared to make it to the top (analogy) and I stopped there and never made it to the peak... and thats as high as it got and thats when I said to my friend I don't know if I want to keep going because of a few reasons.
And since about 2 years ago after I got depersonalization, and I tried taking MDMA a handful of times.. I have never been able to get back to that peak, get back to that place I use to be able to always easily get to.. and I don't know why... I want to just experience it one more time, and I don't get it. Every single time I have tried to do it again, this same exact thing happens. I get to the same exact place and it just stops. I don't go any furthur, my inhibitions don't go away and ... I just stop moving up... I don't understand what it is.
I don't believe at all that this was bad or bunk mdma, i dont think it was piperzine, it was powder white mdma, it was very bitter. My friend, i just asked, he said it was def mdma. I believe him, and I believe it was, I just wanted to make sure it was mdma before i posted this and it might not be mdma and thats why this happened.
Has this happened to anyone else? Has anyone else rolled so many times, or many times and then just , they couldn't get back to that place anymore? They couldn't peak again and they just couldn't roll again like I am experencing? I don't understand what it is... my friend said I should have just taken more and that is why, we just hadn't taken enough and I was going to but then tthe vibe and feeling was lost and it was too late, it was already 1am and i didn't want to do it all now and be up till 6am rolling. So maybe I didnt do enough? Or is it I'm done in my life with psychoactives?
I don't know, it's just very strange, I just want to experience euphoria and the love again like that. I am going to take the rest i have, .1 or > .1 all in one shot soon and if the same thing happens.. ill know my time has passed for ecstasy.
It is just so weird, I don't get it, just because I have taken atleast 100-200 or more rolls within a year before, and they were all amazing, stars almost all the time.

