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I can't even fathom life without.

ish675

ish675

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I can't imagine life sober. I don't mean I just like getting high. Iv'e been an opiate addict since I was young and love most anything i can get my hands on. I've been high every day since I was in high school, I'm not trying to brag, It sucks, I wish I never even started, but it's too late for that now. The point I'm trying to make is that I feel like my life is pointless without drugs. I need them, ( Well, At least Weed and Poppies) and I have no desire to get up in the morning If I'm out of drugs. I want to stop using opiates, but i have no idea how to start. I'm Not looking for advice like "go to AA and find sober people"or "go bowling!" i need some advice on the psychological side, How did you break the habit in your own head?"
 
well learn to stock up on your drugs so you never run out for one. For two, make sure you keep your shit together while you do this, go to school, get a nice job, have a family or not, whatever you want. Don't let your addictions hold you back ever. I am the same way, must be high every single day, if i can't it's not worth it. The only way to quit is to wait it out until the negatives are so bad that you hate the drug and want to quit. This usually leads to finding another DOC though and the cycle continues. My advice, don't fight it so hard, enjoy your life while you still have it and be safe, careful and productive.

maybe life is pointless without drugs, so live a meaningful life with drugs until they start to fuck things up, if that never happens then you can be high for life. Just don't let it get out of control.

life isn't pointless without drugs but such an insane bore it may well be. I get you there. I can't break that feeling in my head that i want to get high, so i decided to stop fighting it and just live my life. Things have been relatively better since. I also quit opiates but they're always around but i didn't enjoy being addicted to them, it sucked actually.

you can also break the habit in your head by reassociating things you enjoy with things that are more healthy. Like start bike riding, get a atv, save up and buy a nice car (hah all material things) or exercise (sucks). So at first you have to force yourself to do things you won't enjoy, eventually though you will enjoy them without being high, and that's how it's done. Maybe get into eastern spirituality or something, open your mind. You aren't defined by your addiction, you are still you.
 
Woah, that's a whole different line of advice. I don't mean to sound cocky but normally I already know what someone is going to say but that blindsided me completely. I already stock up, but maybe once a month I need to reup and I'm out for the morning. I'm not going to say that I'm not addicted to my poppies but I can and have quit before. I wanted to see what sober life was like, its so boring. The withdraws are pretty bad but I can suffer through them. The biggest problem was my back pain, I have a whole slew of problems with my back and I started using poppies as a natural alternative to narcotic pain pills. When I finally got through the week of withdraw I realized that my back hurt so bad I couldn't function. I've come to accept the fact that I will most likely always be a narcotic addict, but the bigger issue is getting everyone else to understand and accept me for that. My family always uses my addiction as a scapegoat for everything, its terrible, any emotion I show is automatically "drug induced" . All I hear about is how I need to get clean and go to a program. The only setback IMO is the money I spend, I spend about 20$ on poppies and 20$ on weed daily. 40$ a day does not seem like much but it adds up quick. I used to spend every penny I made on diludid and heroin, but thankfully I was able to put that behind me. I just want to live a normal life, maybe not drug free, but fucking normal.
 
Its the corniest thing to say, but you have to find something that you like besides narcotics, and completely get into it.
its stupidly hard, and i haven't been able to do it, but i know its a step in the right direction.
 
Hey Ish, have you thought about suboxone? I was a poppy pod tea addict for many years. In the end, it became too expensive, my family and friends found out, and I got into a suboxone program. Life is so much better now- suboxone takes away all cravings, I don't have to worry about running out, or getting lost in the mail, or how I can afford it, etc. Suboxone has been a godsend. I've become a much better person. I'm so much healthier, exercise daily, just feel fantastic. Just a thought..
 
I had no choice.

I used reason and logic. Simple.

I was broken in the mind, the body, the wallet, the spirit, the family, the heart... everything. I knew I couldn't afford my habit, I knew I couldn't take any more abuse with my habit, I knew my family would not except it anymore... so I excepted I had no real choice except to quit.

Could I of ran away and did drugs anyway and ended up on the street. Yes. But is that a logical answer? When there is a far simplistic answer in front of us. QUIT

Just quit bro.. if you want to be a drug addict be a good one. Take a break at least... 1 year is how long takes to really come back from any drug... in the brain that is..

Take at least a two month break if the WD is bad take a benzo its not complicated. Its easy to get clean (you even get a pink cloud when you quit) you get a high almost when first get clean for like a week. Its cool...

Its not getting clean thats hard to even WD is so bad once you been through it enough times to know what to expect... take a benzo if its real bad or wean off the drugs

BUT no matter what take breaks in between use if you don't choose to take a break sooner or later a break will happen either way. You rather do it on your own or because your friends made you do it?
Take a break
 
i hate this to say this but being sober after ten years of abuse this is my first year sober....

I don't like it one bit.

After being as high as I have.. whats worth living for sober if I can't ever feel that way again.. never
 
ish675 said:
Woah, that's a whole different line of advice. I don't mean to sound cocky but normally I already know what someone is going to say but that blindsided me completely. I already stock up, but maybe once a month I need to reup and I'm out for the morning. I'm not going to say that I'm not addicted to my poppies but I can and have quit before. I wanted to see what sober life was like, its so boring. The withdraws are pretty bad but I can suffer through them. The biggest problem was my back pain, I have a whole slew of problems with my back and I started using poppies as a natural alternative to narcotic pain pills. When I finally got through the week of withdraw I realized that my back hurt so bad I couldn't function. I've come to accept the fact that I will most likely always be a narcotic addict, but the bigger issue is getting everyone else to understand and accept me for that. My family always uses my addiction as a scapegoat for everything, its terrible, any emotion I show is automatically "drug induced" . All I hear about is how I need to get clean and go to a program. The only setback IMO is the money I spend, I spend about 20$ on poppies and 20$ on weed daily. 40$ a day does not seem like much but it adds up quick. I used to spend every penny I made on diludid and heroin, but thankfully I was able to put that behind me. I just want to live a normal life, maybe not drug free, but fucking normal.
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hey man as long as you can afford that $40 a day (expensive for poppies and weed btw) i could get pharms for cheaper but either way, as long as you can afford that and keep your shit together just do it. Tell your family your Dr has you prescribed new meds and that you are done with addiction and are seeking help.

this is fucked advice i know but this works and improves your quality of life, which is the main goal here. Live happy, you won't live forever. If drugs are holding you back though by all means quit them and live sober.

oh yeah stock up more than that; like 6 months supply so long as it doesn't go bad, always have withdrawal meds on hand and be prepared for breaks in supply.
 
Or maybe switch to kratom, it's much cheaper and easier to taper off of if you need to. (not going to lie though, it pales in comparison to pod tea imo)
 
ArtVandalay said:
Or maybe switch to kratom, it's much cheaper and easier to taper off of if you need to. (not going to lie though, it pales in comparison to pod tea imo)
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I already use Kava Kava and Loperamide to taper. Suboxone is great but around here you get drug tested and that means no smoking weed, so that's out of the question for me. I've heard nothing but good things about Kratom. I'll have to order some and give it a try. RobotRipping, I know its a ripoff but good weed is 20$ a gram around here and I don't even have to explain why the pods are so fucking expensive. xxsicknessxx, I agree, an old friend and I were talking and I said that I live for the rush, he quickly retorted that he would die for the rush. I just can't ever see myself clean. IMO there is no point in living if I cant get high anymore.
 
If you want to make a change, kick opiates and regain control on your life.
The best response for me was Suboxone, dude it gave me everything back.
It lasts for days, sure you still have cravings but I go to weekly groups to talk with others like me.
Find a sub doctor, get into groups and avoid certain friends that will tempt you.
I'm not a doctor or a suboxone salesman (LOL) just telling you what worked for me, and sooo well.
 
exercise your back at a gym while on drugs until your back is strong and it wont hurt nearly as bad and then try quitting drugs
 
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