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Mental Health I can't deal with this anymore!!

SluttyPeach

SluttyPeach

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I'm so sick and tired of waking up every day afraid to leave the house. I feel like I'm being watched all the time and since they put cameras in my neighborhood it's been worse (I live in public housing)

I've already lost a job over it and I don't wanna lose my new one. My medicine doesn't help much and it makes me feel like shit. I've been in and out of the psych hospital for the past year and it seems like nothing will help me!! I haven't got many friends so I don't have anyone to talk to who understands. Also one day last week my friend and I were smoking bud and out of the corner of my eye I saw the ghost of what looked to be a cop but he had skinny black an white tentacles instead of arms. I was visibly freaked out and when she asked me what was wrong I just told her I had a stomachache because I'm embarrassed about being scared of things that are probably not real. This is really starting to affect my life in a negative way and if this isn't the right place to post I'm sorry, but I just had to get it off my chest. Thanks for listening.
 
Enough with the troll posts johnny. This is mental health and not the place for that. Maybe try the lounge.

Slutty,

Have you tried other types of medication? What are you currently using right now?

Probably laying off the bud is a good place to start. Are you prone to panic attacks? What is your diagnosis if you don't mind me asking?

Sorry for all the questions, just need a bit more information.
 
I have paranoid schizophrenia, since I've made this post I've switched from Latuda to Risperdal and I'm doing much better. Thanks for the concern :)

Smoking weed isn't something I can do very often along with amphetamines because they exacerbate my condition.

I also moved out of that neighborhood, that place was.. Eh.
 
Glad to hear it. Sometimes swapping around a medication can do wonders. I wouldn't want to live anywhere that had cameras either, that would freak me out and make me paranoid too. Make sure you are working with your doc so things don't get too out of control and you can make adjustments when you need it. I struggle with a lot of anxiety too so I can relate but I just have the shitty type of bipolar.

Best of luck sista.
 
Ms. Peach what happened? I thought you were okay...hope you are alright. Let us know how things go when you get out. Much love to you. <3
 
The fact that you can tell that the things you're seeing out of the corner of your eye, etc, aren't real is a really positive sign. This is called 'insight' by psychiatric professionals and there's a strong correlation between having strong insight around psychotic symptoms and being one of the people who makes a significant recovery.

I'm glad the Risperadol is working a bit better for you. You can do this. Good luck!
 
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