Alright so heres the problem ive been on probation and in this program and theyll randomly drug test me, ive been there for almost a month and ive only pissed once out of numerous attempts. I literally thing i have a psychological disorder but that doesnt matter because i HAVE to piss since im on probo. Ive tried running water, imagining im somewhere else or thinking about waterfalls, holding it it (which where im at theres not many staff so sometimes i have to hold it anyways) and even when my bladder is so full it hurts i cannot go for the life of me, the one time i went the guy took pity on me and shut the door. but because of this my po is sending me to a ?detention center? i guess you could call it until im clean, but im not gonna be able to test clean if i cant piss. another thing when i do hold it even if its to the point where i can barely hold it, and i go to the bathroom alone its still hard to even start pissing because ive held it so long, and if im getting drug tested and ive held it my anxiety skyrockets and its almost impossible for me to shake it, i literally came out crying once half because i had an anxiety attack and half because my fucking bladder hurt so bad . so basically unless i find a way to piss in front of someone then im going to be stuck in non secure until i can which could be literally weeks even though ill be clean by the time im going in there. please recommend things i can do to try and piss in front of someone