I came home early last nite
I wanted to surprise you
Well i guess that wasnt the case
I only surprised me
So many times ive been told
Yet so many times i didnt believe
But now how do i deny what i saw with my own eyes
I even closed them and opened them again
Hoping this was all a bad dream
It wasnt
What i have been denyin was starin me in the face
I wanted to lose it and kill you both
But standin in our doorway i couldnt speak
You must've really been into it
You didnt realize i was there
So i just turned and left
As if i never came home
Returning two hours later i didnt know what to say
You were in the shower washing what had happened away
I couldnt sleep in our bed last night
So i crashed on the couch
You came to see what was wrong
But all i could say was "do you love me?"
I knew the answer though and knew what i had to do
But tell me how do i accept that i just wasted four years of my life on you?
I wanted to surprise you
Well i guess that wasnt the case
I only surprised me
So many times ive been told
Yet so many times i didnt believe
But now how do i deny what i saw with my own eyes
I even closed them and opened them again
Hoping this was all a bad dream
It wasnt
What i have been denyin was starin me in the face
I wanted to lose it and kill you both
But standin in our doorway i couldnt speak
You must've really been into it
You didnt realize i was there
So i just turned and left
As if i never came home
Returning two hours later i didnt know what to say
You were in the shower washing what had happened away
I couldnt sleep in our bed last night
So i crashed on the couch
You came to see what was wrong
But all i could say was "do you love me?"
I knew the answer though and knew what i had to do
But tell me how do i accept that i just wasted four years of my life on you?
