herbavore
Bluelight Crew
I'm worried I'll find a good job or gf or both in the months im waiting to get into rehab and not want to leave. The opening for rehab always comes at the worst time in my experience.
Stay in the "now" and don't worry about things that are not actually happening to you in the present. Look at it this way--you would not be healthy enough to sustain a good job or a good relationship in your current circumstances. You are in a struggle to get yourself mentally healthy. When you are on your feet, feeling free of addiction, able to deal differently with all the stresses that got you there in the first place, you will be ready for anything. Right now, look at this as time for healing YOU.