I broke my sobriety

yeah but that 'escape' stops working after a while and then you are still stuck with having to deal with the initial problem, only now, a shitload of other problems have been accumulated.

Life doesn't stop throwing shit at us when we are escaping. It keeps moving while we have essentially stopped participating in it.

The escape eventually becomes more painful than the pain that initially led us to our temporary escape



Whats wrong with continuing life while on drugs. I know life doesnt stop & who said anything about not participating in it? I know people that have done drugs over 30 years w/o stopping their use & they havent stopped going to work or whatever else they do in their lives.

I was onky saying that opiates are a great escape from certain mental problems & without going into what these certain problems may be to one person or another, you dont have to go buck wild on opiates. You can moderately take these narcotics for years on end as long as it is used moderately. Im not talking about people that start out with vicodin & after 2 weeks they are snorting oxys & then within 2 months they are shooting heroin. these people are on the road to disaster very fast.

I know you will say so are the people that are using moderately because its just a matter of time & maybe so but atleast they are taking a shot of some normal kind of life for the next 10 years of using moderatley & most will take that any day.
 
jaggedpills.... I am a fomer addict. Once I admitted to myself that I was an addict I found the rest was easy. But everyone is different. I know you are going through a tough time in your life in a tough situation in your home life. Don't beat yourself up over breaking sobriety, you will quit when the time is right for you. It will come together when it is meant to. But, that in no way means too just wait for it to happen. You have to work on your life as a whole in order to deal with your addiction. It is not like taking off your shoes. It is intertwind with your life, emotions, physically, spiratually etc.... Make sure you treat the whole picture not just the addiction. :)



I agree 100%, if you want to treat the whole picture, its other things you gotta look at & not just the addiction.
 
Hey friend if you dont mind me calling you friend, i broke my four months of being off shit (crystal) and now im back on that stuff. Yeah feels like shit but we can give up. That was the best four months of my life, in the twelve years i've fucked with that stuff i for once was able to go four months. I felt the same way as you like there was something missing and it was the sad guilty feeling i guess we get use to it that it becomes a part of our lifestyle. Im ready to go again and quit. Lets do this buddy
 
I know its only been a couple weeks, but those were the hardest weeks for me. A friend came over (he used to be my dealer) & of course he had shit on him. I just did so much shit, i can't even funtion right now. Its takin me like 10 min to write this. Fuck. I hate that I broke being sober, but at the same time I feel like I needed this & I feel so much better.... :/

thats not your friend i can promise you that !!!!!!!if it was he would of never givin you anything except a slap for asking!!!!!!!
 
just try not to get caught up in the guilt of it all because that will just make you wanna get high again. relapse is part of the process, just get back on that sober horse and ride!
 
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