I belong here

[bonita]

I belong right here
wheres there always rain
the place where theres all to lose
and nothing to gain

i can't get hurt
when i live here
i just accept the struggle
i can't even see clear

i dont know anything
where im going, what to do
don't try to help me
because i know i can't pull through

everytime i do
someone kicks me down again
sad but true
it's always a friend

my friends walk past me
as i continue to fail
everyone i love
is getting sent to jail

sent to hospitols
for overdosing with shit
the only time i feel pain
is when i get hit

thats my reminder
that im not completly numb
i can't even pass 10th grade
i know im dumb

my self esteems so low
because for years i had to sleep around for money
i laugh when im supposed to cry
i think its funny

because when i laugh
i get tears in my eyes
i revearsed it
thats no suprise

im messed up
in more ways then one
i don't even know
if i'll ever see the sun

i got the world's problems
on my shoulders
they pile up
as i get older

but its ok
because i belong here
theres no need to get upset
because my future is already clear

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

The saddest thing about this is the sense of acceptance that comes forward in this piece. Painfully raw writing, simple verse carries the sombre tone well.


I hope things get easier for you, I know what its like to live in a grey emotionless space and it really isn't a good place. I always find writing helps get the feelings out and sometimes it all seems less after. Hope its like this for you too.

 

[Mary Poppins]

this poem has a beautiful simplicity...it made me very sad to read it. it reminds me a lot of the song 'castle on a cloud' from les miserables....i think it's that resigned acceptance of the situation.

i hope your writing is helping you to work through some of your problems.

 

[cherub]

This made me sad ,,, cause i feel like i am just leaving what you wrote,,, how odd,,,, you put it to words in a way i haven't figured out how to... thanks

 

[bonita]

thank you guys for your input. i dont really tell alot of people about what im going thru, and when you reply to my posts it reminds me that im not alone.