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I believe bluelight may be bad for meeting my drug use goals

There is a huge difference between the sleep we get when using drugs all the time and the sleep we get from sobriety.. i feel and look way more rested after five hours of sleep now than i did after ten or twelve hours sleep when i was all strung out.. we need to get our brain chemistry beck to near baseline for sleep to have the proper effect.. a really good way to do this as well as clean out pores and increase blood flow is exercise.. please consider making thirty minutes of aerobic exercise part of your daily routine.. it will also make the stimulants work much better and you feel much better about yourself.. really this could make all the difference in the world:)
 
Many find they have to distance themselves. I know I have had to. My interest in drugs has waned quite a bit though. Its not just this site either, I have to watch the craft beer sites when I am not drinking or cutting back.

Honestly, I usually only visit this area when I do come to BL nowadays. Only time I seem to visit the other forums is when I am using.

As for the Wellbutrin, I'd think it would help with amphetamine cravings. I was never much of a speed user (especially over the past 6-7 years, hardly touch the stuff now) but I do find Wellbutrin very helpful. SSRIs on the other hand.... well those are a big pain in the ass for me. Just getting off taking one for a few months and not sure why I decided to try again.
 
OP here. I really, really do deeply appreciate having people (even strangers) here to talk to me about my problems.

I've been on 150mg Wellbutrin for about 3 weeks now, which has been giving me extra energy, as it gives you more norepinepherine like most stimulants, and with just a hint of dopamine.

However, I also saw a second psychiatrist, about 10 days ago, who I didn't tell about the other one, who prescribed me Focalin 10mg... Which is also an NDRI. I've taken Focalin on top of the Wellbutrin 5 times now.

Not to mention that a couple months ago I decided to quit opiates, after seeing dramatic changes in my face for days after a single high dose of heroin. Now, 2 fucking nights ago, when I was running on 5 and 3 hours of sleep across the last 2 nights, I was up at 4am shooting IV hydromorphone. Did 4 mg in two shots, across about half an hour. Wore short sleeves to class the next day, with about 6 needle holes in my arm, some big. Don't think anyone noticed the junkie arm on a kid in advanced math classes at a legit school...

And yes, two days later my face looks BAD from it. Holy shit, my cheeks are that cut away? Largely sleep, I'm sure, but I feel so self conscious. I worked with some people in my math class today, and it's sad to think that anyone who looks me in the face for at least a few seconds can tell I've changed my appearance from hard drugs. It's sad when I can't even work with a cute asian girl in my class without making her uncomfortable with my hard-drug face.

I have the 25 remaining focalin on my bed in front of me. I just sent my psychiatrist a message, asking for him to prescribe me Lexapro (an SSRI), so that I can get back on one of those. Fuck, I need it just to be able to stand the way I've changed my face at this point. I think a reasonable drug use goal at this point is to get on a SSRI and stay on bupropion, and then just drink caffeine if I need it or something.

I'm at least pretty happy that I haven't taken more than 1 pill in a day.

FUCK! At least I'm not on Adderall.
 
TCMVegas said:
Opiates and amphetamines, because they've already given me, a skinny college student, enough facial wasting that I'm saving up to have a plastic surgeon inject filters into my face.
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Forget about the fillers. Do facial exercises/massage instead. That will also increase circulation and make you look more healthy and can also help you firm/lift and build facial parts to make you look better, like larger cheeks, higher eyebrows, more open eyes, etc.
 
Focalin and Wellbutrin cause the 'sinking' of my face... It's noooo surprise to me that the combination looks awful! I wouldn't take both together.... Wellbutrin kinda removes from me the desire (as much) for my ADD meds, or else I'll be overly-out there in a stimm'd kinda way.
 
I feel like a made a good step... I gave my focalin to a friend, to hide for the next week. I am still on 150mg wellbutrin, and today started an SSRI again, escitalopram. 5mg daily for two weeks, then 10mg per week thereafter.

Fucked up yesterday with concerta, it looked bad =/

But I'm on track to get a good taste of being on just an ssri and wellbutrin, with just caffeine. I have been having an energy drink every day. Sounds way healthier to me, hope it works out well and I can get my ass on track in this class.
 
Heh, just was looking through my old posts. My last post in here was 2 and a half weeks ago.

I've been on Focalin every day for the last 10 days. I think as long as I eat, sleep, and stay on just 10mg a day, it's worth the academic benefit.

I'm considering stepping it up to 15mg, I've not been working so well these last 4ish days.
 
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