Im 15 and i dont enjoy life as much as i feel i should. It seems pointless and it all comes to an end. I dont want to kill my self due to disappointment of this life but i just wonder whats the point. Im smart and i have a lot of money compared to most people but i just dont care about any of that. I wish there was more to life and i just am unhappy.
I am unsatisfied with life.
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Not to sound too trite, but you're still really quite young. Give life a chance; it's pretty amazing once you get into it. Do keep in mind though that the lame truism "you get out what you put in" is especially true of life. The more you do, the more you can do, and the more life shows its wonders.
Mostly, this just sounds like you're bored. Go do something then! Any meaning that life may have comes from whatever meaning you give to it. Keep in mind as well that life owes you precisely nothing; the world does not exist to entertain you.
Oh, and welcome to BL and Blogs by the way! Have you checked out our Philosophy forum? You might like it there.
Mostly, this just sounds like you're bored. Go do something then! Any meaning that life may have comes from whatever meaning you give to it. Keep in mind as well that life owes you precisely nothing; the world does not exist to entertain you.
Oh, and welcome to BL and Blogs by the way! Have you checked out our Philosophy forum? You might like it there.
I feel extremely inteligent and i should be out of school. i just feel on a higher level than other people like i wish there was just more im not sure how to explain it.
im new here by the way
im new here by the way
shouldnt be in school*
i dont enjoy school or want to be there. i spend my time being with people i have no interest in and they are thinking in the moment about little things and im interested in much larger pictures. Life does not seem to give me excitement. I have experimented with drugs and that just seems to mask the problem. I only seem to understand older people than my age and i am always told im much more mature, but i show no interest in growing up since life isnt exciting
First of all, welcome to BL 
Second of all, I agree with Dave up there- give life a chance. You are indeed still quite young. I felt the same way when I was around your age, I think a lot of teenagers go through that sort of thing. I'm not trying to downplay the way you feel- not at all- I know your feelings are legit. I'm just saying, because you're young, you really haven't had the chance to experience everything life has to offer. Right now you're stuck in a high school bubble; maybe once you've graduated and you're out on your own, you'll feel more comfortable and less bored?
There's still tons of stuff for you to do... sounds cliche, but you really do have your whole life ahead of you. You haven't yet started a career, or fallen in love, or travelled to the places YOU want to see, or graduated high school, or experimented with random college courses.
Which is another thing- you say you don't feel like you don't belong in school, but don't write college off just yet. It's a whole other world with a lot to offer. It's not all staying up until 4 in the morning every night studying. There are a plethora of different classes you can take... basically any subject area you can think of, from your regular math and english courses to the most random things ever, like military studies and all types of art and philosophy and music and theatre courses and soooo much more... and I'm sure something there will pique your interest. Plus there's different clubs and activities and sports you can get into that high schools probably don't offer.
One last thing, you say you're interested in the "larger picture". I'm not quite sure what you're referring to EXACTLY, but there are things you can do now to work towards that larger picture you're thinking of... doing something productive with your time that you also enjoy might make you feel better too.
Best of luck to you
Second of all, I agree with Dave up there- give life a chance. You are indeed still quite young. I felt the same way when I was around your age, I think a lot of teenagers go through that sort of thing. I'm not trying to downplay the way you feel- not at all- I know your feelings are legit. I'm just saying, because you're young, you really haven't had the chance to experience everything life has to offer. Right now you're stuck in a high school bubble; maybe once you've graduated and you're out on your own, you'll feel more comfortable and less bored?
There's still tons of stuff for you to do... sounds cliche, but you really do have your whole life ahead of you. You haven't yet started a career, or fallen in love, or travelled to the places YOU want to see, or graduated high school, or experimented with random college courses.
Which is another thing- you say you don't feel like you don't belong in school, but don't write college off just yet. It's a whole other world with a lot to offer. It's not all staying up until 4 in the morning every night studying. There are a plethora of different classes you can take... basically any subject area you can think of, from your regular math and english courses to the most random things ever, like military studies and all types of art and philosophy and music and theatre courses and soooo much more... and I'm sure something there will pique your interest. Plus there's different clubs and activities and sports you can get into that high schools probably don't offer.
One last thing, you say you're interested in the "larger picture". I'm not quite sure what you're referring to EXACTLY, but there are things you can do now to work towards that larger picture you're thinking of... doing something productive with your time that you also enjoy might make you feel better too.
Best of luck to you
hey thanks man that is true i am still pretty young. im 15 but ive gone through a lot of shit and i only like to hang out with my bros 19 yr old friends. i know what i want to major in once im in college and i know what i plan to do with my life it just sucks still being in highschool. i really dont feel like anyone gets me even though everyone wants to be my friend. but your right i havent lived on my own or experienced many things and im looking forward to it. Thanks for everything :D
Hey guy. I really feel for you and want you to know that you WILL feel better, this will pass, etc. However, it's no fun being where you are right now - that I KNOW! And I'm worried about you. Being 15 and feeling like nobody gets you is a downright lonely, shitty place to be. Keep trying (like you've done by posting here).
If the notion doesn't turn you off, I'd suggest finding an older mentor-like someone to talk to. (I'm guessing your parents aren't much support. Even if they were/are, non-parent support is often needed as well.) If professional counseling is not doable right now (and it can be really a crap shoot to find someone that gets you, even there), even a guidance counselor, teacher, coach, or some other older person who has his sh!t together a little and gets you helps. I'm glad that at least you HAVE an older brother who has friends that sort of get you. Some people don't even have that.
Also - you might want to experiment with different artistic outlets (drawing, writing, music, film, dance, theater, etc.). You don't have to be "good" at it - it's purely for self-exploration and healing (and anyway - "good" and "bad" aren't what Art is about).
Also - don't discount the basics like proper sleep, a little exercise, nourishing food - it really does effect how you feel. And you may even be an appropriate candidate for medication - not necessarily pushing it, just saying from experience. My daughter - now 19 - sounds similar to you in some ways. She also had extreme physical symptoms which didn't seem to have a physical cause (after many, many tests). Finally, her doctor suggested something like Zoloft - and it actually made a big difference - physically anyway. She no longer was plagued by anxiety & fears that caused her to be practically housebound and unable to sleep. The help it gives/gave regarding her depression, while not as noticable, is still substantial. The medication is definitely NOT a HAPPY PILL - at least not for her or for me (I take it too). But it takes the edge off my depression enough for it not to interfere so much with my life. It makes keeping going easier to do - even though I don't always want to. So - for ME it helps a little...but a HAPPY PILL would be nice.
You've got a bright mind and a deep soul. Please keep the faith. We need people like you and my daughter - sensitive, compassionate, reflective types - to enrich our world, make this planet habitable and humane. It does take time and work to understand how to make your gifts work FOR you - not against you. PLEASE hang in!
If the notion doesn't turn you off, I'd suggest finding an older mentor-like someone to talk to. (I'm guessing your parents aren't much support. Even if they were/are, non-parent support is often needed as well.) If professional counseling is not doable right now (and it can be really a crap shoot to find someone that gets you, even there), even a guidance counselor, teacher, coach, or some other older person who has his sh!t together a little and gets you helps. I'm glad that at least you HAVE an older brother who has friends that sort of get you. Some people don't even have that.
Also - you might want to experiment with different artistic outlets (drawing, writing, music, film, dance, theater, etc.). You don't have to be "good" at it - it's purely for self-exploration and healing (and anyway - "good" and "bad" aren't what Art is about).
Also - don't discount the basics like proper sleep, a little exercise, nourishing food - it really does effect how you feel. And you may even be an appropriate candidate for medication - not necessarily pushing it, just saying from experience. My daughter - now 19 - sounds similar to you in some ways. She also had extreme physical symptoms which didn't seem to have a physical cause (after many, many tests). Finally, her doctor suggested something like Zoloft - and it actually made a big difference - physically anyway. She no longer was plagued by anxiety & fears that caused her to be practically housebound and unable to sleep. The help it gives/gave regarding her depression, while not as noticable, is still substantial. The medication is definitely NOT a HAPPY PILL - at least not for her or for me (I take it too). But it takes the edge off my depression enough for it not to interfere so much with my life. It makes keeping going easier to do - even though I don't always want to. So - for ME it helps a little...but a HAPPY PILL would be nice.
You've got a bright mind and a deep soul. Please keep the faith. We need people like you and my daughter - sensitive, compassionate, reflective types - to enrich our world, make this planet habitable and humane. It does take time and work to understand how to make your gifts work FOR you - not against you. PLEASE hang in!
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would just like to point out [ with the greatest respect ] that i disagree with the previous comment.
I used to work in the mental health 'industry' and i wouldnt recomend anti-depressants to someone of your age. Stay away from the mental health 'professionals' if you can.
Everything else she said is spot on though. Dont underestimate the power of sleep and exercise.
The ppl that have a sh*tty time at school grow up to be interesting adults. The boring drones you find yourself surrounded by wont ever change. They will keep thier friends, probably marry someone from school. Live and die in the same town, drink in the same pubs every weekend and pass the time with petty drama.
The sensetive types like yourself usually end up 'doing something' with thier lives.
You wouldnt be here if you werent interested in drugs. For gods sake stay away from the addictive ones! or you'll just end up like the other sheep, or even worse.
Even the nice drugs, like weed, be careful with them =-] dont waste your brain and dont waste your chance to travel before you get old and have kids =-]
would just like to point out [ with the greatest respect ] that i disagree with the previous comment.
I used to work in the mental health 'industry' and i wouldnt recomend anti-depressants to someone of your age. Stay away from the mental health 'professionals' if you can.
Everything else she said is spot on though. Dont underestimate the power of sleep and exercise.
The ppl that have a sh*tty time at school grow up to be interesting adults. The boring drones you find yourself surrounded by wont ever change. They will keep thier friends, probably marry someone from school. Live and die in the same town, drink in the same pubs every weekend and pass the time with petty drama.
The sensetive types like yourself usually end up 'doing something' with thier lives.
You wouldnt be here if you werent interested in drugs. For gods sake stay away from the addictive ones! or you'll just end up like the other sheep, or even worse.
Even the nice drugs, like weed, be careful with them =-] dont waste your brain and dont waste your chance to travel before you get old and have kids =-]