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I am strugling with meth addiction and need help with my dark thoughs

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If i were to attempt to kill myself with drugs on an overdose, what would be the easiest or most painless to use? Currently i have a lot of amphetamine, how much would a 125lb male need to take to overdose and die? What would be the symptoms prior to death?

EDIT: At the moment for a 150lb male 1360mg is fatal and i weigh 125lb and have 1380mg or amphetamine/dextroamphetamine
 
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I'm just so sick of living the way i'm living. I'm walking on such thin ice and i still can't stop myself. Ahead of me is basically a death sentence if i get caught using and i still can't stop. I'm so ashamed, i broke into a house for liquor like not even 3 hours ago… i just feel like i'm dead no matter what.
 
the folks over at The Dark Side are warm and cuddly, make a thread and vent how you are feeling about life at the moment :)
 
Sugar pills ususally do the trick.
Than once your mind isn't a clusterfuck of impending doom and realizing that the placebo didn't kill you.
Re-think your actions.

-HOOD
 
You're not alone. Millions contemplate suicide every day. Please reconsider. Millions contemplate, and as soon as a million more contemplate, a million more find another way to deal. No matter how critical a situation seems... it always blows over. Try doing something you have never done before (something that won't kill you, just something different... adventurous.) Then try something else. Force yourself. Feel what it's like to experience an aspect of life you haven't felt before. It's a numbers game. Keep trying until something sticks and resonates.

If you keep trying, at least you will be occupied thinking of new things and trying them #my2cents
 
Two people have given extremely bad responses. EP there is no reason to suggest anything whatsoever and the greenlighter with ten posts should get banned....

I couldn't imagine anything worse than a stim death.... Not even meth, but pure amp. There is help out there for anyone who needs it, but it also takes initiative on ones own part to make it work. One big part is giving up the control things like the liquor have on you, which obviously leads to bad choices not only when you drink it. Once you break from the control it has you can learn how to respect and tame the urge for the many brews.

I know I can't make you do anything I just hope you choose to continue your flow until you find support in life to be a strong current in the river of life.
 
Bob Funkhouse said:
Some serious fuckwits in this thread.....then again I suppose there are a lot of people lacking in emotional intelligence and lacking in empathy. The world we live in I guess.
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I agree. However, if a question regarding this type of thing I s asked, this is where people come for answers. The argument remains that although there should be support in health, a question always deserves an answer. I'm sure the answers to the questions come from some type of an honest place (ie: someone in the same situation that's educated in the subject and has an answer AND is feeling the same pain so is sympathizing... And feeling as though their answer is a help)... And if not... If the person is emotionless, and has something positive to add but chooses not to... Then... That's fucked up.
 
Bob Funkhouse said:
Some serious fuckwits in this thread.....then again I suppose there are a lot of people lacking in emotional intelligence and lacking in empathy. The world we live in I guess.
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Life appears in places where conditions arise to sustain it. You see, Earth's population doubled in the last 50 years, in another 50 years it will reach a tipping point where there literally aren't any resources left to sustain it. If no sustainable space travel is invented, the fight over resources will lead to world war 3, which will possibly result in the destruction of Earth.

Too much life can be worst than no life. If you talk about empathy and compassion for life on this planet, I must say yours is a very biased one, that is, toward your own species. I must say that so far, since we cannot survive without our host planet, we are no more than a virus, a cancer of this planet. You have no compassion for life when you take antibiotics and wipe out billions of harmless bacteria in your intestines that did nothing to you but help you digest your food, please don't talk of empathy when it comes to the human race.
 
I REALLY think this discussion is better suited for the dark side. I hope an admin moves it.
 
Bob Funkhouse said:
Some serious fuckwits in this thread.....then again I suppose there are a lot of people lacking in emotional intelligence and lacking in empathy. The world we live in I guess.
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Maybe that's your concept of emo intel or empathy, doesn't mean it has to reflect some one else's life, the state can play god with us but we can't
Maybe just maybe some people have a different pov of empathy and actually feel like a person should have the right to commit suicide if they so please

I'm not saying I think it's right or wrong and I would strongly recommend against it, maybe try to find some kind of pro help

And also wouldn't amph od prolly just give you a heart attack, right
That wouldn't be ideal imo
 
Ksa again with an interesting appetizer for thought.

The question I would like to ask the OP, how can you be sure, that after the death of your body, anything will be better for you ? Do you think all the problems are solved then ? Where does the energy go ? If you are interested in the topic you should delve into it, before going out of this life and probably find yourself in an even worse situation.
 
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You want to kill yourself? Is that all you amount your life to is your drug use? I'm sure you could do anything you put your mind to but first you need to change this additude. Is that what you want is to die? Seriously just think for a moment imagine eternal nothingness and the world you left behind In a cowards way moving on without you. Your life is worth something I don't think you came on here for someone to prove you right I think your looking for a little bit of hope I think you want to see that people do care.

I'm not going to tell you how to kill yourself if you wanted to you would've already instead of coming on here. Your not bacteria in someone's gut being killed by antibiotics like someone said your a human being who could have a life you deserve if you truly wanted it. I understand we go through pain and your in pain right now but that's life man life is alot of pain. I know first hand every morning I wake up I'm in pain, I go to work I'm in pain, I come home I'm still in pain do you know how many times I wanted to just give up? How many times I said I'm going to kill myself? I try to see that killing myself is selfish and I push through to try to make something out of my life anyways because there is still good in this world my friend if you look hard enough.

Keep your head up my friend we all want you to do well even if we don't know you personally we can relate to the way you feel most of us have been there at one point. Well besides the few people on here telling you to go through with it. I think they are just miserable themselves don't listen to that crap this isn't the way to stop overpopulation and if they still think that is the way I suggest they be the ones to go off themselves. If they had been through this themselves and came out alive a better person then they would see dying isn't the answer since they came out alive a Better person. They are just being fuckwits as someone said haha.

Better days ahead of you keep your head up:)
 
I'm going to go ahead and move this to the dark side, so more people will give you useful advice on improving mental health rather than methods with which to kill yourself (some people have suggested pretty unreliable or unfeasible methods to boot).

ebola
 
I have reported the two posts that offer advice on how to kill yourself. Please everyone, refrain from offering methods to a person that is in such obvious distress. It is irrelevant how you feel about suicide philosophically. I also support a person's right to die and right to determine when that should occur. However, most people, my younger self included, are suicidal not because they want to die but because they want the life they are living to die.

Life changes, you change. Op, give yourself a mental resting place other than the idea of death. A person in desperation gets slammed back and forth between pain and shame and it is quite natural to become mired in hopelessness. But there are ways to step away from cycles that seem inescapable. When suicide looks good to you it only means that the pain in your mind has grown too much to be borne. Sometimes, especially if addiction is involved, it can seem there is no escape. There is. It seems counter-intuitive but going down into your own anguish rather than running from it, is often the only way to leave it behind.

I hope this thread gets moved to TDS soon as there are many, many members there that share your experience. Feel free to PM me at any time.<3

edit: thanks ebola? We must've been posting at exactly the same time.;)
 
I couldn't pass on without saying something.. Most of the time I'm better off keeping my thoughts to myself because who gives a fuck, really? I'm just another person with another opinion not worth another thought.. I feel the place your mind has buried into.. Countless nights I lay awake hating this life and contemplating how easy it would be to end it. Give up. Quit... Never had I sunk this low to where I felt these thoughts becoming rational and finding more reason to end this life..
Then again in the same moment, I feel realitly set back in.
What person could unconditionally and truly want to take your life and let go so easily?
Life is an amazing thing. Its mind blowing that people have come so far and achieved things never thought logical.
With endless potential we are the most superior presence to walk this earth. Nothing can match the power we hold just by simply living & breathing.
As hard as those people worked for us to have somewhat of a decent world to live in, I find it would be very selfish to turn our backs on life. I mean. Dig down.. DEEP. We all have a reason to live even if you can't think of one. Why the fuck else would we be here, right? For whatever reason it might be you were chosen to live your life and you wouldn't have been put here if whatever the fuck put us here didn't think you couldn't handle it!
I don't wanna get all scientific and shit.. So just take a step back dude. Breathe. Its cool. Just know the future is here and you are meant to take part in it. Whether or not this helps, I hope you can make sense of it.
FUCK I hate how tweak makes me go on andonandonandon until Im ashamed of myself for fucking thinking so much!
Anyway.. Keep it cool. Take a lil break if you gotta. Like some rapper said that one time in that song. Get ya mind right! I believe in you bro.
Peace.
 
I felt that last post!

I overdosed accidentally on smoked meth (least likely) when I was 19 and it was shitty as fuck. Youll probably end up in the hospital more than anything. I wouldnt trust those numbers either thats a shitty threshold to be factoring a humane suicide on. Like seriously. Come down off this bitch and rethink it with us tomorrow. You have no idea how many of us were in your exact spot and inifintely glad (I LOVE MY DAUGHTERS SO FUCKING MUCH!) we didnt hit the off switch. Feelings are temporary. Life is too I guess but its certainly less fleeting than happy or sad in your brain.

Ex-meth addict of almost 10 years, son of 2 meth addicts. Only addicted to Mary Jane nowadays and Lord is it glorious! Somewhat recent meth kick so its not like Im preaching from some ancient spot I deal with this bitch every day. But I win now.
 
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Many years ago, I hoarded all kinds of meds with the intention of offing myself. Fortunately for me, someone called me at my darkest moment, heard my distress and called a doctor...the doctor called the cops to come take me to a 36-hour hold in a psychiatric hospital. That saved my life. I wouldn't have gone willingly, and I wouldn't have called anyone myself. It was not just the help I got in the hospital that helped--it was living in a hospital for 36 hours, seeing the other people there who seemed truly beyond help and realizing that I didn't belong there. It was the kick-in-the-head I needed to jumpstart my life. I haven't had those thoughts since.

Please don't wait for someone to call and hope they do the right thing. Call for help yourself. I'd like to think that someday you can write a post that starts, "Many years ago...."
 
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