I am new to Bluelight. I posted a little bit about myself in the new member introduction forum. Pretty much been on and off heroin for a few years and always find myself reading bluelight for info, tips, and advice. I finally decided to sign up and get in here and see if I can benefit or maybe help others by putting my story out there for users who relate. This is probably my 6th or 7th time quitting. I only smoke. Never injected before. Today I have work and leave in an hour. I am smoking the rest of what I have which is about a dub which i think is about .2 grams. I have been so bad lately I have been smoking in my car during breaks at work. Mind you I have only been at this job for about three weeks and it is my dream job something I've been wanting to do for a long time. Not going to say because I don't want to somehow be identified. Anyway, this job means the world to me and I know the drug use is going to catch up sooner or later. I can already feel myself not performing at my best as a result of my use. Also my girlfriend is about to dump me if I don't get off it. So it is time to face the withdrawals. I am sure they will kick in half way through my shift tonight. I am bracing myself. I actually have to get ready to leave now. So wish me luck new friends and please feel free to reply. I need all the support I can get. I feel like I have no one. My friends don't care to be around me, they haven't said it and I try to be secretive about my use, but I am sure they know. So anyway, yeah, Ill update tonight and let y'all know where I am at with my withdrawals...
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I am quitting heroin! Lets see how it goes this time...
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Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Is there anything we can do to help you with your struggles trying to quit using dope?
w0w0mg
Bluelighter
That's awesome you have chosen to get off the stuff!
You will find so much support here, and please keep us all updated.
If you ever have any questions or just need to talk, don't be a stranger!
You got this!!
You will find so much support here, and please keep us all updated.
If you ever have any questions or just need to talk, don't be a stranger!
You got this!!
Burnt Offerings
Bluelight Crew
It's a tough thing to quit. Definitely don't underestimate the pull of smoked heroin (I'm guessing tar, if you live in the USA...?) My first dealer was purely a smoker, and she was going on a 10+ year habit, through the local methadone and buprenorphine programs and was still an addict...I'm pretty sure that she's still an addict to this day, I'd be very surprised if she actually quit. I IVed my shit when I used (sometimes I'd smoke it or snort it...although it began to mess with my respiratory system so I quit smoking it entirely, eventually) but her habit was a lot more substantial and problematic than mine, IMO, even though she "only smoked".
But anyway, good luck. I know that it's hard...I'd recommend getting a small amount of benzodiazepines and/or gabapentin, some kratom and ride that bitch out.
It actually feels amazing not to be a slave to some bullshit drug...I know because I'm experiencing that right now! I know that all the unhappiness and anxiety and physical pain and all the other crap that caused me to use in the first place will probably come roaring back with a vengeance eventually, but I'm enjoying it while it lasts
But anyway, good luck. I know that it's hard...I'd recommend getting a small amount of benzodiazepines and/or gabapentin, some kratom and ride that bitch out.
It actually feels amazing not to be a slave to some bullshit drug...I know because I'm experiencing that right now! I know that all the unhappiness and anxiety and physical pain and all the other crap that caused me to use in the first place will probably come roaring back with a vengeance eventually, but I'm enjoying it while it lastsokay its been 24 hours. i don't really know what can be done to help. all i know is i feel like complete shit. my girlfriend is coming off it too. she called me up to spend the night with her and i went over there. it felt nice to not be going through it alone and then she kicked me out her house insisting we must stick to our break. i feel tempted to use right now but i am not. its honestly not that bad if i just stay in bed and ride it out. i know its going to get worse than this tho. so far my symptoms are body aches, runny nose, runny eyes, and no appetite. My stomach is beginning to feel a little funny too. I feel like I might throw up. Thats all for now
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
best of luck 
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Yeah, sometimes two w/d'ing junkies kicking together is kinda a recipe for relapse. That said, because you two are both in the same boat, there is the potential for mutual support during the detoxification process. TBH most of the time it seems like people I have known as well as myself in your situation with your SO end up crashing and burning eventually abd relapsing in a bad way. So be mindful and cautious of the dangers your present situation faces you with. From what you posted, it seems like you are.
And I second CH, best of luck! You can do this thing if you can put your mind over matter
And I second CH, best of luck! You can do this thing if you can put your mind over matter
BeatTheSickness
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yeah man get to your local headshop and buy some kratom. and if they aren't capsules, just take like an 1/8th of a spoonful put it in your mouth and chug water until it's in your stomach. repeat once everything settles after a few minutes. if you're in acute WD you won't be able to swallow large amounts, and will end up vomiting and subsequently wasting the kratom, and feeling worse, w no relief. You'll be surprised how effective it will be. get some loperamide/ibogaine on top of that, and if you are fortunate enough to score some benzos, a little bit will go a long way.
depending on how bad the WD is, for the kratom, you'll probably need like 10g+ every 4-6 hours to get you out of hell.
something that helped me pull through is to keep reminding yourself why you want to get better, remind yourself of the goals (your girlfriend, career aspirations, etc.) and you'll cope. almost like an apathetic state, but in a positive way, lol.
depending on how bad the WD is, for the kratom, you'll probably need like 10g+ every 4-6 hours to get you out of hell.
something that helped me pull through is to keep reminding yourself why you want to get better, remind yourself of the goals (your girlfriend, career aspirations, etc.) and you'll cope. almost like an apathetic state, but in a positive way, lol.
Welcome!
Well you won't be embarking on this journey alone. After 6'months, three months (I was clean for a month in between) straight of H use, I will be quiting in Thursday. I have also decided that I can't do this anymore.
I unlike you am not brave enough to go cold turkey. I am armed with lots of loperamide, Kratom, clonipin, and if I can't hang with those subs.
Please keep us posted on your journey, it will be nice having a couple people close to the same days encouraging each other!
Rachel
Well you won't be embarking on this journey alone. After 6'months, three months (I was clean for a month in between) straight of H use, I will be quiting in Thursday. I have also decided that I can't do this anymore.
I unlike you am not brave enough to go cold turkey. I am armed with lots of loperamide, Kratom, clonipin, and if I can't hang with those subs.
Please keep us posted on your journey, it will be nice having a couple people close to the same days encouraging each other!
Rachel
Good luck I almost had 2 weeks clean. Relapsed Wednesday so it's starts over. For me PAWS was way worse I had bad cravings and dreaMs about pushing off. Gotta cut anyone off involved in that lifestyle get rid of all paraphernalia. Good luck my wife and I are 3 days since our minor relapse. Send me a message if you want some good music and books to help through it. Best of luck