I am in love, and I never saw it coming.

I find myself listening to love songs, and thinking of him so much. This is so hard because he is so far away from me. We talk everyday, but it is just so hard, because I truly love and care for him deeply. He is planning a trip to see me next month and I am so excited. I mean, he is so talented and smart. He's funny, and loving. Not to mention so gorgous. I am so nervous. Even though I have known him for many years on the boards of bluelight and in private chats. We have became such close and dear friends, I find myself falling so hard. I just don't want to ever loss his friendship.
AM I crazy to take this chance? What if we are great together, or what if we loss our wonderful friendship? I want to move forward with him with all of my being, but I do worry. I wouldn't be Stella if I didn't, lol. Either way, I am taking the chance. I wonder how many BL couples make it? Can this be the new and in love me? I mean, I have been out, but I never had the connection I have with him. So why not just go with it. Whats the worst thing....I could be a happier person lol......

 

i am happy for the both of you

if you both can handle the distance, i see it turning out well

 

I can handle it. I just really see this working out too. He and I are so alike and we enjoy the same things. I just want him all of the time. I imagine his trip to see me is going to be one with many photos we will share with you if you want.
Seriously enough I really see him and I working. I just have to help it work out. Maybe I can move to him. Who knows, right?
Until then I am just going to enjoy the way we make each other feel, and I am going to go for it and lose some control for once.
Thanks for the advice.

 

good stuff! all the best to both of you

 

Thanks Spork and rachamim. He is worth the distance, and we both agree to make it work. I am so excited about his up coming trip to see me and have fun together.