it's over. my daughter already had the LP I spent $48 bucks on.
That’s pretty much a myth I think (except where there are a lot of court-ordered reprobates being forced to go to the meetings. I went to one earlier this week and people were very welcoming and sincere and gave me good advice - most were many years sober.
Do you think you would benefit from going to see a brand new doctor and just unloading everything on them and asking for a fresh look at what your diagnosis really is and what new pathways forward their might be?
That's a damn good idea, except I suspect a lot of GPs would just chuck me out of the office ... I'd have to persist.
My current GP has written a ref for me, with a view to getting assessed for ADHD by a shrink, but her letter will never get my foot in any doors. The shrinks who treat adult ADHD all want to be sure that you don't have any other problem, like depression or trauma, and I have had both. Plus I am on Valium. Plus I have a history of alcohol issues. All of this is outlined in my current referral letter, and two shrinks so far have refused to see me.
Maybe I should go to a fresh GP and lie about everything except the Valium (which can't be hidden - cos even if I stopped Valium tomorrow I would still test positive for about 3 months).
I am so sad, all else aside, that my daughter already HAD that damn Buzzcocks record. Nor did she like the jacket I bought her. I had to take it home.
Am just getting drunk now. I have no more Dex and no prospect of anymore Dex except perhaps in about four weeks, when my brother scores off someone he knows and will chuck me a few if he feels like it ...
And the weekend stretches ahead ...
I think I'll just stay up all night tonight and try re-set myself into "nocturnal" mode for at least a few days. It's the daylight hours I can't bear. I am always much better at night ...
