I am back and "well"

[Fjones]

So, I am guessing I must have posted in the self-harm / cutting thread, which is what prompted some concerned replies from some of my BL friends.

To make a very long story very short, I am okay. I cut myself, fucked it up, got stitches, went crazy with my Valium bottle, and ended up being involuntarily committed to a mental institution for a week. It was an experience that was simultaneously frightening, fascinating, infuriating, and enlightening.

I am an supposed to attend frequent NA meetings, stay clean from any and all substances, etc. I am not even supposed to drink a beer.

Problem is, I am not sure how I can function without my Valium. But since I took a "near-lethal;" dose which I dispute), I can no longer be prescribed it and must function without it. They want top put me on Depakote, which IO have heard nothing good about.

I must say, mental institutions are nothing like I thought. I met some really cool people and I hope they are successful in their recovery efforts.

 

[mymindisgoo]

the beauty about being clean from all drugs, is that you can learn how to deal with your problems head on and not have to rely on any drugs to escape (even if tap). good luck on your recovery too, it's fun being able to say i have xx amount of days clean.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Depakote works well for some people. As its what's ordered and you aren't in a position to really defy or deny for a while you might as well keep an open mind about giving it a trial. You can keep a log of side effects and utility, then if its a problem later on you can make a better case for moving to a different agent.

I get along well with my psychiatrists by having a mostly co-operative demeanor and only pushing for things once in a while. Having a unemotional organized reason for asking for changes seems to work in my situation.

Are you on out patient commitment for the time being? If so it is especially important to not rock the boat. It will be a while before you can petition to be removed from outpatient and keeping the doctors happy will help a great deal with accomplishing that.

 

[Fjones]

Depakote works well for some people. As its what's ordered and you aren't in a position to really defy or deny for a while you might as well keep an open mind about giving it a trial. You can keep a log of side effects and utility, then if its a problem later on you can make a better case for moving to a different agent.

I get along well with my psychiatrists by having a mostly co-operative demeanor and only pushing for things once in a while. Having a unemotional organized reason for asking for changes seems to work in my situation.

Are you on out patient commitment for the time being? If so it is especially important to not rock the boat. It will be a while before you can petition to be removed from outpatient and keeping the doctors happy will help a great deal with accomplishing that.

I am not sure what my status is but I will find out. In the meantime, I like your idea about keeping a log.