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I am angry tonight

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suzieq70s

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I am angry tonight. Angry at the way my husband emotionally and mentally abused me for so long. Angry at the way I was left to sort through the broken pieces of me life. Angry at the emotional and mental issues I'm dealing with nowadays. Most days I'm depressed, anxious, defeated, unmotivated, and so damn tired. But tonight I'm angry. And the worst part is I'm angry at someone who is now dead.
 
So sorry to hear about your situation. I'm sure you feel stuck where you are but that is far from the truth. It may take some time buy if you set a bunch of small goals to reach to get you to your one big goal then you can do it. Good luck, don't let him define you. Keep yourself safe and keep your head up.
 
gmlifer said:
So sorry to hear about your situation. I'm sure you feel stuck where you are but that is far from the truth. It may take some time buy if you set a bunch of small goals to reach to get you to your one big goal then you can do it. Good luck, don't let him define you. Keep yourself safe and keep your head up.
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Thank you gmlifer. It just plain old fn sucks. Its been one year and I think I'm just now starting to feel the aftereffects of it. Some days are decent not good but decent. Some are spent in anxiety and fear. Most to be honest are spent in anxiety and fear and depression. I'm just now trying to learn how to sort through all of this.

I agree with the idea of setting several small goals in an effort to accomplish the big goal. It's so Damn hard though. Most days I feel defeated and have the attitude of why even bother.

I refuse to give up hope though.

I also want to say that this site is awesome. There is a feeling of acceptance and more than that there is a feeling of real understanding. I have two really good friends. They know about 50% of the details and they are great at accepting and listening but unlike on here there is not that feeling of understanding because they have not personally experienced what I've gone through.
 
The more details you provide about your anxiety and fears the more people on this site can relate and the more help you are likely to get. Not being pushy, on your own time of course.
 
Anger is a good, cleansing emotion. When we get stuck in it, it can become self-defeating (not to mention possibly hurting others), but as an honest reaction to something 'not right' it is a good motivator to change. I suspect that is something you needed to feel. Healing happens in layers IME.
 
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