I am an idiot

I am so fucking stupid and ugly and so not worth while.

What is the point of all this shit anyway. I thought I was doing what was good and it was all not even worth it i

I am feeling so low right now. Just so s urge and shit and cant handle it.

Cant do this. Its like im just here to be the person who has no reason to be alive so she sets the standard for all low lifes.

I have no will to live anymore.

 

You're beautiful, smart, and an amazing person. Try not to let things get you down too much. Tomorrow is another day.

 

From reading your posts over the years, you are anything but an idiot. You've slipped up, but you can still pick up where you've left off.

My therapist once told me something that really helped me. She said that many people, myself and I'm guessing you included, see themselves in an all-or-nothing sort of way. Either you're perfect, or you're worthless. Which is complete bunk of course, but it's hard to convince yourself of this in your heart-of-hearts. The key, she said, was to focus on the 'some' rather than the 'all'. Every step in the right direction, even if it is just after a huge leap in the wrong one, is a good thing, and is all that matters.

A step in the wrong direction does not negate 7 weeks of stepping in the right direction. Don't even start counting over. You're on to week 8.

My apologies if this comes off as scatterbrained or preachy, it's been a long week for me. But I couldn't let you bash yourself for this. The whole world is just lining up to tell you that you're worthless, so why do so yourself?

Good luck, and much strength to you.

 

as my sergeant in recruit schoolloved reminded us each day at 5am, and then all day at randdom points, everyone fucks up, everyone makes mistakes, and the key is keep working right though them, while making an effort to correct them when you get the time.