I Am A Riverboat Salesman With Thick, Illuminous Fire

I've been really unsure of pretty much everything lately. I'm lost to things that were but unquestionably clear before.
I wish I could find some stability. I know I have to be patient. I'm everything but patient. It's really hard for me to recognize feelings even within myself. I'm not sure anything was ever stable, perhaps just sustained. A pacifier for my inconsistencies. I live in [redacted] and I'm not really sure if I even want to be here. I moved here from [redacted] a year ago and I don't think I've ever really settled.

Even now... I'm trying to get all of this out of me and I'm being vague and still feeling as if everything is convoluted.

Until next time.

 

It takes a long time to settle into a new place sometimes. I'm not sure if I'm really settled here yet and I've been here for 6 years, you're definitely not alone.

It's good to see you here.

 

good to see you, thanks for the words.

 

I know these feelings well.

Never quite feeling settled, although I've resigned to the fact that i may just have to live with it and deal with being this way forever.
It's instilled pretty deep in me, a feeling of unrest that is.

By the time I was 15, I had already lived in 26 different houses over three different states, up and down the east coast and a short stint as a kid in N.Z

My Dad, is still moving around the place to this day and has done more so since my parents split.
I think I inherited something, somewhere, somehow.