I can relate, i felt like that all thru my twenties man. But i wasnt empty, i just saw everything around me as chemicals and that if everything in life is just chemicals reacting, then surely the solution to the problem or the aim of life is to find the right chemicals? or combination of them?
I used to use everything but methadone then wound up in a methadone clinic at 21 and found myself hanging out with a whole different level and world of drug users. fast forward 10 years and im almost rectifying that mistake, and i have no teeth.
I kept thinking i was on the edge of a breakthru and that i would beat the drugs and then build my dream life, Cause thats what everyone was telling me i had to do. I bet you have a lot of people trying to help u?
well, it did happen, it just took about 10 years of trying. i try and get my natural buzzes thru using the things ive learnt as a drug user to amaze people.
I can read people, empathize and tell great stories of just ordinary days i racked up as a user. Personally i think we make for the best partners, so if u can find the right girl, it makes it seem like a breeze.
just fuck the guilt right off. who needs it? go and use as many drugs as possible and be urself, cause thats what your going to do anyway, why feel bad about it?
I used to use everything but methadone then wound up in a methadone clinic at 21 and found myself hanging out with a whole different level and world of drug users. fast forward 10 years and im almost rectifying that mistake, and i have no teeth.
I kept thinking i was on the edge of a breakthru and that i would beat the drugs and then build my dream life, Cause thats what everyone was telling me i had to do. I bet you have a lot of people trying to help u?
well, it did happen, it just took about 10 years of trying. i try and get my natural buzzes thru using the things ive learnt as a drug user to amaze people.
I can read people, empathize and tell great stories of just ordinary days i racked up as a user. Personally i think we make for the best partners, so if u can find the right girl, it makes it seem like a breeze.
just fuck the guilt right off. who needs it? go and use as many drugs as possible and be urself, cause thats what your going to do anyway, why feel bad about it?
