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I admit, I am addicted to meth. I don't see a need to stop using when I am functional

Technically, you are functioning, but what does that really mean anyway in regard to drug abuse? IMHO, it means rationalizing it via infrastructure, or a deluded idea of a base line. It appears you are playing up a few, albeit important, aspects of your life as to escape from the remainder. And jobs, but especially hygiene, usually deteriorate in the later game.

I will echo the insightful allusion made by the poster above me, missmegandelaney, and guess you know you have a problem, but sought validation/refutation because on some level it torments you. I hope you let this be your bottom, because, particularly w/ meth, there are some bottoms from which there is no return.

Good luck sorting it out.
 
Some really good posts in this thread. If you can, try to start lowering your doses and perhaps giving yourself a rest on your days off. This way perhaps you can still remain 'functional' but not be fucking up yourself so much. Take care...
 
I have a little knowledge of this issue, my father in law has been a meth addict for the past 30ish years. Here's my take on the pros and cons of his drug use and where he's at today

Pros
-amazing father. He has a daughter and step daughter and grand kids. They all love him and he's so good to them. I only wish I had the energy and patience that he does
-he held a great career through his whole addiction. He's pretty intelligent even with all the damage im sure he's taken to his brain. He designs the equipment used in medical facilities and hospitals
-he's happy. He made a choice and made the best of it. While 99% of the world would think its the wrong choice, it worked for him

Negatives
-dentures. Your teeth will fall out, it's only a matter of when
-your health and hygiene will diminish. Even now you might be fooling yourself in believing you are clean cut. Lack of sleep takes its toll on everybody. At the very least I would stop the off day binging.
-money. You will be broke. Even doctors would struggle with a meth addiction financially.
-every long time tweaker starts gaining certain ticks, tremors and or speech problems. In the end, a tweaker will look like a tweaker

I actually asked him the last time we visited Oregon how he's managed this long and if he regrets it. He basically said that it would obviously be nobodies wish to depend on a drug, but he's led a good life and has no regrets.

With all that being said my father in law is probably a very small minority, and even though he's alive and happy you would also have to be the type of person comfortable with looking and acting like a tweaker and living a pretty secluded life with even a smaller chance of a love life
 
oblivious

sorry to re act to this old thread... but i want any addict that thinks this to see the truth




ok, although i do not know your EXACT situation i can almost certainly tell you that meth will take control of everything, and it is VERY deceptive, you will be completely oblivious to this fact that you are not functioning properly... even when you dont notice or see it, your personality and the things you do have changed. this drug is real slick it makes you perceive things about your life that are not normal as "normal".... IMO it can take certain addicts quite a length of time to even realize that they have been acting or functioning any different that usual. To tell you the truth the fact that you think you are functioning normally is not a good sign, IMO that indicates that the drug is in control...

I admit, I am addicted to meth. I don't see a need to stop using when I am functional
beside the fact that you think that you are "functioning normally" EVEN IF you actually are! there are a long list of reasons to stop.... Health is a theme through out.

you cant use methamphetamine recreationally, i dont care what anyone else says, its not possible (sorry dont mean to sound ignorant or misinformed i truly find this to be a FACT)



i quickly looked over all of the posts so it is very likely that someone has already said this.
 
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Roger&Me said:
"functional" methamphetamine use is an illusion created by the drug, there is no such thing.
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precisely! i deal with this deception still.... its crazy, i even know the horrible things meth can and will do to you, but still the drug justifies itself it subconsciously, resulting is the long term psychological addiction that makes this drug so addictive and hard to quit!
 
I'm in the same boat as you and have been for a year. I'm also in my early 20s.

I've seen a steady decline in a lot of aspects in my life after I opened up to it. It's mainly the stigma. It's also the depression of trying to quit. It breaks your heart. Loneliness never felt as awful.

It is funny how, when I got into the culture it was more diverse than any other.

I see people doing meth that I would see working at a nice restaurant or an office. I see people doing meth who kill for a living or live off scraps at 30.
I've met users 15-50 and there seems to not be an age that caters the most to the drug.

I started to realize that the drug, to many people, is a commitment they inadvertently made. Therefore in the philosophical aspect you can see it as a curse or a blessing. You've been struck by something that you have to keep moving forward no matter what. Meth can't steal your soul if you're the one controlling it.

After addiction sets in:
Admitting you're addicted is step one
Controlling your use is step two
Throwing it in the toilet is three
Find a pharmaceutical alternative (vyvanse is to ice as methadone is to heroin) to taper off with is four.

Good luck. Eat plenty of protein.
 
You basically just helped me with all of the problems that have been goin on consciously and subconsciously with me I fear I won't stop not because I don't care wether or no I'm addicted, but cuz it has a tight grip on me and I always continue using with the "I'm gonna be fine this is normal" additive and the mind set " I have to stop now!" Those are my contradicting emotions, shit I even know which is right... But why am I so subconsciously "ok" with my meth use?



Sorry to ask veer the OP of course, but I have got to figure this out, Renz Envy just helped me to an apifany.
 
I feel a lot of people are like this.

Doing meth is the contract you signed with the fine print at the bottom stating that it will be there. Always. Taunting you like a sexual fantasy. One day it might take everything you have. One day it might convince you of that.

We are not too different. If you manage to come off of amphetamines it seems like the world becomes more vibrant and lifelike. You'll have feelings you forgot you even had.

If you continue amphetamines, then you will forever push the boulder up the hill. No one will help you. There is no top of the hill. If you stop, the boulder will run you over. If you quit now, then you have a much weaker fall than later on.
 
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