I admit, I am addicted to meth. I don't see a need to stop using when I am functional

[Stimlover22]

I am in my early 20s, I work a full time job, never tardy and never called in. I pay my rent before due, all bills are taken care of. I am clean cut, well kept. Most people would never guess I am also a meth addict behind closed doors. On my days off, I binge on crystal by snorting, smoking amd occasional slamming, in fact all I do on days off is abuse meth. My working days I do a big line before I go in, and after work I smoke some for a few hours and then take my shower, pop my rx sedatives and eat a meal then go to bed until a couple hours before work. I am definitely an addict, I spent time in rehab for crack cocaine addiction before, as cocaine wouldnt allow me to be functional. My point, I see no point in stopping my meth addiction when I am clearly functional and pay my bills and physically take care of myself. I guess I can have my cake and eat it too.

 

[twato]

Just give it a year or two and see if you're still "functional"... keep in mind that meth is quite toxic, you will experience symptoms if you abuse it long time. Seriously, you're playing with fire, please try and don't get burned.

 

[tripnotyzm]

Twato is right.
You may seem to have things in your life under control now, but as a result of the amount you say you are using on a daily to weekly basis, i think you are really treading water with your long term health.
Early 20's is very early in life man.
For how long do you expect to cope with using this much meth??

 

[g0to]

However functional you may be it will take its toll on your brain and body eventually.

 

[footscrazy]

What was the point of posting this thread then?

 

[villian]

What was the point of posting this thread then?

Probably because he is smart enough to realize being a meth addict is in fact a problem even if he isn't ready to quit.

With that being said I agree with the previous posters. Now is the best time to quit because you haven't lost everything you care about yet. All it takes is one freak situation for you to get arrested and get a meth charge. There goes that good job and paying rent on time; then you need to spend your savings on a lawyer to try to keep the shit off your record.

Going from a functional addict to a non-functional one can be an amazingly quick and painful process.

 

[Anoymator]

The problem is that meth addiction leads you to develop an even worse addiction: Rx sleeping pills, which I am willing to bet are either benzos, Z-hypnotics (e.g. zolpidem) or barbiturates. Sleeping pills like the ones mentioned are possibly the worse addiction you could ever build on yourself and it was caused only because of your addiction to meth so that you can be "functional". Correct me if I'm wrong with assuming what the sleeping pills are but I am 99.99% sure they are one of those 3; these 3 are pure hell to be physically addicted to as your whole life (including being functional) will be dependant on them.

Fact is, without the sleeping pills, you would not be functional with your meth addiction. Just wait until one day you run out of sleeping pills or you go on a business trip and you forgot your pills at home, then you will see what it is like to not be functional.

 

[LilbabiC]

Are you truly happy and have a quality of life that you want with your addiction? I don't think you are because if so you most likely wouldn't have posted this in TDS.

 

[michael]

i was a "functional" alcoholic for years. you couldn't pay me to revert back to that again. sounds like you spend all of your off time holed up in an apartment doing meth. doesn't sound like much of a life to me.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

The problem is that meth addiction leads you to develop an even worse addiction: Rx sleeping pills, which I am willing to bet are either benzos, Z-hypnotics (e.g. zolpidem) or barbiturates.

That is a huge assumption to make. That's like saying people who use sleeping pills inevitably end up using stimulants to counteract next day sluggishness.

 

[shezinphx]

There are tons of closet drug users but I can tell you this. Your body may be able to handle it now because you're young and it sounds like you know how to take control of your life however, I guarantee you it will catch up to you. Meth takes a toll on your body no matter how hard you try to keep yourself looking clean. It will eventually change the structure of your face, your eyes, and especially your teeth. It's not something that just normal brushing and dental visits can prevent. Your hair will start to become brittle and thin too. Do you want to look like a meth addict in 5 years? I think deep down you are realizing that you need to stop now before it consumes you because it will. Please get help.

 

[lilmizer]

I say have at it. You're not going to change. Methamphetamine is one of the most neurotoxically invasive chemicals there are. keep managing. stopping now would be absurd... what with you still having a job (highfive for clocking in on time btw- i dont do that all the time sober!,) your teeth, being clean cut, paying your bills before they're even due(!) and all that jazz.

things will be real awesome when you're required dosage if infinite to have normal thought processes, and you look like your 55 even though you're 35.


and when your worn out, tore up, and hopeless.
-Just know that there is a solution- and people waiting for you to realize a fulfilling existence with genuine relationships, glimpses of true contentment, exhilarating experiences, and a whole bunch of generic normal day-to-day shit.

 

[Anoymator]

That is a huge assumption to make. That's like saying people who use sleeping pills inevitably end up using stimulants to counteract next day sluggishness.

He has stated that he pops his Rx sedatives as part of his daily routine.

I don't quite get your second point with the inverse analogy. He is smoking meth for some hours after work then popping some Rx sedatives. Seeing that he is abusing meth (smoking it), I would have thought that he is taking his sedatives with the same purpose that the rest of meth addicts have: to ease the comedown and be able to get sleep so as to face a new day and be able to snort a fat line of meth in the morning and be "functional". His meth addiction is having him develop yet another addiction which has the worst physical withdrawal of all.

The only assumption is that the sedatives are benzos/z-hypnotics/barbiturates for which, as I say, I'd be interested to know if they are (which considering his drug abuse pattern, will very likely be any of those 3 drugs).

I actually hope that I am wrong as I would not wish him an addiction to any of those gabaergic drugs (much less on top of a meth addiction).

 

[lilmizer]

benzo withdrawal is rough, but to coin it as **the worst** withdrawal is a bit biased...

one could die from the immediate cessation of benzos or what not.... but i'm pretty sure that benzos and whatever else aren't anywhere close to being as neurotoxic as cocaine/meth - particularly meth. they wouldn't be prescribed to people for infinite years.

really this is all neither here nor there, you just want to argue with C.H. =) and the the threat of *oh my* an (gasp) additional addiction isn't really of any consequence or significance when someone is already facing piles of meth... thats like telling someone who likes to lick uranium suppositories as a hobby, who already has early stage lymphoma, to stay away from bathing in the sulfuric acid afterwards because THAT SHIT IS PAINFUL BRO.

lol!

 

[captaincaveman]

My friend, I used to live by this ethos. 'I'm functioning so what's the problem?' You will crash and burn I guarantee it. My use of meth is limited to some exploits in San Diego so not an expert. Mine was xanax, I got promoted twice, invited to government neetings, life was good. I got up to 10mg a day then the site I was buying it from got busted. Switched to valium 150mg a day and I burnt out at 26. What my therapist says to me is Don't settle for functional, I know what she means. I know someone based in Asia who's hooked on meth and I could post footage of him addressing fund managers while completely gone. Listen to everyone, it's nice to think we're screwing the system but you're not. Youthul exuburance is quite charming but it will turn. Stay ahead of the curve,you're not indestuctable. The Asian fellow I mentioned lost his job fsmily everything. He was 25

 

[DooMMooD]

^ thats some good input.

A car with a flat tire is "still functioning". Doesn't mean id drive 400 miles with it that way.

 

[herbavore]

in fact all I do on days off is abuse meth. I am clearly functional

When I read your post these were the two sentences that stood out to me. I think if you take away all the other sentences that explain being "functional" you can see that maybe that is not as high as you should be setting your sights. What about fulfilled? What about engaged with life, with other people, animals, a bigger world. I am sure that right now, while the drug still feels so good to you, it may be easy to convince yourself that this is truly enough for you, but what about when it doesn't feel good anymore?

I think there is another post within the one that you wrote. I hope that you will ask yourself the hard questions so that you can begin to listen to what you know.

 

[LuGoJ]

OP

How many people do you know that have successfully used meth while remaining functional for 10+ years? Ever met any 50 or 60 year olds that have applauded what meth has done for theirs and their families life? I can’t say I have ever met one and there is a reason for that. I’m not saying it isn’t possible but it’s highly unlikely. We like to think we will be the ones that will beat the statistic but deep down inside you know you are just a regular person that will most likely have the regular outcome. If you are coming to your conclusion while you are using it then I would suggest taking a break and then reevaluating. Making decisions about the course of your life with an altered conscience is never a good idea.

 

[missmegandelaney]

If there is anyone who has figured out how to use cyrstal meth and avoid the negative things that come with using it, please tell me how.

But your loosing yourself in this process. You are the most important thing.

You rely on a drug to function, I doubt if that makes you functional. I hate the term "functional addict". No such thing. By the way, if you don't think you can go to work without that line... the fact that you've become dependent on meth to live day to day i'd say makes your life a circus.

But who are you trying to convince, bluelight or yourself?

" I admit, I am addicted to meth. I don't see a need to stop using when I am functional"

Maybe you know deep down you really should stop.

 

[sleepwalker]

Oh, I remember the days , being a "functional addict", with a very good job, man, i felt like superman ,when i was 20...
But like most posters stated, life WILL hit you in the face, even when you're "Functional" now.
I can tell you i lost that job, first real gf, my first marriage, second job, friends, money, dignity, got caught by the police.........
and now I am 40, and wonder how functional i was at the time.

You can still quit, before life starts handing out different cards, and PLEASE, PLEASE do,cuz life is shuffling the bad cards allready right in front of your face.......

greetz,sleepwalker