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I’ve been addicted to more then half my life at 36. And just moved to Chicago and am scared

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Fast Tony Salerno

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I grew up in Brooklyn and started sniffing bundles freshman year in hs. Junior year the needle, moved to la for sober living and had 2 years clean and started doing shooting blacktar and started using meth for the first time. After four years of shooting meth and black together I was homeless in skid row covered in mrsa. After two years homeless in La I moved back to Brooklyn and got on Methadone for 3 years which stopped me from doing dope cause they made my tolerant so high that shooting a gram of powdered dope didn’t feel anything. But I finally got off the methadone right before the pandemic I move back out to LA we’re fat and all of the crazies. And I immediately started smoking fentanyl with meth again and been doing it again every day for the last 2 1/2 years and I’m moving to Chicago I just actually got here two days ago and I’m freaking out. I have enough stuff with me to last me a little while but I don’t know what the hell to do I want to get silver in a way but honestly if I drugs keep me alive cause But I’m not on them is the only time I’ve ever been suicidal. So the lesser of two evils in my mind anyway I’m on the edge is my cell phone if anyone has any suggestions
 
Fast Tony Salerno said:
I grew up in Brooklyn and started sniffing bundles freshman year in hs. Junior year the needle, moved to la for sober living and had 2 years clean and started doing shooting blacktar and started using meth for the first time. After four years of shooting meth and black together I was homeless in skid row covered in mrsa. After two years homeless in La I moved back to Brooklyn and got on Methadone for 3 years which stopped me from doing dope cause they made my tolerant so high that shooting a gram of powdered dope didn’t feel anything. But I finally got off the methadone right before the pandemic I move back out to LA we’re fat and all of the crazies. And I immediately started smoking fentanyl with meth again and been doing it again every day for the last 2 1/2 years and I’m moving to Chicago I just actually got here two days ago and I’m freaking out. I have enough stuff with me to last me a little while but I don’t know what the hell to do I want to get silver in a way but honestly if I drugs keep me alive cause But I’m not on them is the only time I’ve ever been suicidal. So the lesser of two evils in my mind anyway I’m on the edge is my cell phone if anyone has any suggestions
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Hi @Fast Tony Salerno 😊 Welcome to this forum.

I don't have any suggestions.. I'm in Australia 😐
 
Welcome to Bluelight. I see you were only on here for 21 minutes total about 4 hours ago. I'm gonna guess in a big city like Chicago you found what you were looking for. If you come back and make another post one of our rules is no sourcing.

I hope the move treats you well. Maybe it will give you some perspective on how you want things to turn out. Maybe it will be the same as it was in California however it will be much colder. The streets of Chicago in the winter are brutal.
 
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Welcome to Bluelight. I see you were only on here for 21 minutes total about 4 hours ago. I'm gonna guess in a big city like Chicago you found what you were looking for. If you come back and make another post one of our rules is no sourcing.

I hope the move treats you well. Maybe it will give you some perspective on how you want things to turn out. Maybe it will be the same as it was in California however it will be much colder. The streets of Chicago in the winter are brutal.
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My apologies I was misinformed about what this forum was. I was told it was place where addicts can help other addicts with information that can help prevent people going into dangerously neighborhoods or getting robbed or bad stuff. Won’t happen again. Not here to disrespect the site
 
Fast Tony Salerno said:
I was told it was place where addicts can help other addicts with information that can help prevent people going into dangerously neighborhoods or getting robbed or bad stuff.
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this is true

however, there is a blurry line between this and meeting up to source, or directing them where to go to get drugs which is not allowed
 
Fast Tony Salerno said:
My apologies I was misinformed about what this forum was. I was told it was place where addicts can help other addicts with information that can help prevent people going into dangerously neighborhoods or getting robbed or bad stuff. Won’t happen again. Not here to disrespect the site
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No harm...no foul. You are new so how could you know all of our rules. We ARE here to help people. It's just that when people move to new cities they have to use their own common sense and safety practices to score in new territory. There's really no way we can keep you safe. Only you can do that.

Hope things are working out good for ya. And that you settle in okay.
 
Taper, taper and taper.

It doesn't need to be a choice between getting high and getting suicidal. Gradually cut down on the amount you're using over time. Sure, it'll be uncomfortable and you won't be in a good mood. But you won't be suicidal if you play it smart and just gradually wean yourself off them.
 
I know the feeling your going through, funny, I’m at home and can get whatever I want to be comfortable yet not buying anything, and at the same time I can remember being in a similar position to you where I would have killed to meet a hook, I dunno I’m rambling, good luck buddy, be safe cold copping
 
Fast Tony Salerno said:
I grew up in Brooklyn and started sniffing bundles freshman year in hs. Junior year the needle, moved to la for sober living and had 2 years clean and started doing shooting blacktar and started using meth for the first time. After four years of shooting meth and black together I was homeless in skid row covered in mrsa. After two years homeless in La I moved back to Brooklyn and got on Methadone for 3 years which stopped me from doing dope cause they made my tolerant so high that shooting a gram of powdered dope didn’t feel anything. But I finally got off the methadone right before the pandemic I move back out to LA we’re fat and all of the crazies. And I immediately started smoking fentanyl with meth again and been doing it again every day for the last 2 1/2 years and I’m moving to Chicago I just actually got here two days ago and I’m freaking out. I have enough stuff with me to last me a little while but I don’t know what the hell to do I want to get silver in a way but honestly if I drugs keep me alive cause But I’m not on them is the only time I’ve ever been suicidal. So the lesser of two evils in my mind anyway I’m on the edge is my cell phone if anyone has any suggestions
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You should try to stay as sober as much as you feel you can because a new environment is a great time for a turning point in life .. but I’m in Chicago heights so idk how it is in LA
 
Oh dear, I hate when good drugs inflict bad pain…what happened, if you don’t mind me asking? Btw, the Australian accent is by far my favorite of all time. It’s so clean and proper…but please don’t confuse those words with my personality. While I am very clean physically as well as everything around me, and I am proper in my manners and appearance, it stops there LOL!
 
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