Southwestsosa
Greenlighter
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- Sep 6, 2018
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Monday 8/23/21 At 12 noon was my last gram shot. (I used 1-2 grams a day for the past year and about a half of gram a day for the year before that. 20hrs later on Tuesday morning 8/24/21 I went out and got a bunch of meds ( subs, clonidine, zofran, Xanax, indica weed) and I’ve loaded myself up on the clonidine. Zofran and Xanax and indica strained weed. Fast forward to last night Thursday 8/27/21 & im in AWE that all my symptoms hwve been subtle. Mild to moderate wd, compared to usual. Maybe because of the meds I used?? Everything was going great. Thursday night comes & Well i started feeling a little twacky, restless /cringy and finally tried a sub. I kept it in for 10 min and spit it out. Figured maybe it would be best to not fuck with the receptors since everything has gone so smooth. Couple Hours later last night going into 12 pm midnight I started getting more twacky and then gave in and did a small rinse. I’m talking small 30ml of water sat in an old cap no mixing nothing for like 30sec then drew it up and shot it. I woke up this morning and still do not feel 100% but I feel about the same as I did every other morning waking up.
But I’m thinking did I just blow my four days away from using that small amount? I still feel the same as I did for the past few days. And I had been able to get up everyday and even drive . whats going on? Did I just restart my wds by using tht little tiny rinse?
This is the first time I ever done this willingly by myself and on my own I just wondering if I just lost my chance to get my life back or if I should still be ok.
Any info helps . I think the opiate gods are blessing me. I never made it this far I’m getting excited and still worried at the same time
But I’m thinking did I just blow my four days away from using that small amount? I still feel the same as I did for the past few days. And I had been able to get up everyday and even drive . whats going on? Did I just restart my wds by using tht little tiny rinse?
This is the first time I ever done this willingly by myself and on my own I just wondering if I just lost my chance to get my life back or if I should still be ok.
Any info helps . I think the opiate gods are blessing me. I never made it this far I’m getting excited and still worried at the same time